last night was fun [in a way dorky way]. court and i headed on over to gottschalks to talk to the other courtney. it was way busy so we sat in the furniture department shooting the shit. after like 15 minutes it finally slowed down and so we went to talk to courtney and andy. yeah. we ended up standing around and talking to them for almost an ( Read more... )

i had breakfast with him this morning. uncle dan's bagelry. french toast minus the syrup [i <3 syrup]. he is there yet he isn't. his mind and heart are someplace else. i wanted to badly to reach over and hold him. to comfort him. i didn't pressure him to talk about anything like i wanted to. we just sat there in mostly silence. he asked ( Read more... )

i'm glad today is almost over. i was in a good mood and then a bad one. i hate days like today. i am in a better mood right now though. i talked to steve on the phone. i hung up with him though [because i was chatting with him online too] and now he won't chat with me. hehe. i am off tomorrow. i love tuesdays because i never work them.

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i love this song soooooo much. i am in a really good mood right now although i shouldn't be . . . vanilla coke is so yummy slightly frozen. i had a pretty awesome weekend. saturday night was fun. jared, matt, and i went to starbucks for a quick drink, saw steve, said hi, acted shy. then matt and i ordered STUFFED CRUST pizza at my house and ( Read more... )

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i'm a bum today. and i feel way bummed ( Read more... )

i am really down and out today. i was proud of myself that i hadn't cried over him in at least a week but today i caved in. i am so weak.

on a brighter note, i made a new friend. his name is ( Read more... )

i am so dumb.

i <3 the video for "freakish" by saves the day.

the top 5 albums that sum up my feelings about/for him are as follows:

5. the bouncing souls hopeless romantic when he and i first started talking i had heard a song called "you're so rad" and he downloaded it and would listen to it every night. also, "hopeless romantic" pretty much sums me up.

4. vendetta red blackout analysis . . . as ( Read more... )

::what (illegal) drugs (if any) have you done ( Read more... )