[Axis Powers Hetalia] Bioluminescence [France/Canada/Prussia, mentions of others]

[lenarix_klinde]

Title: Bioluminescence
Author/Artist: lenarix_klinde
Character(s) or Pairing(s): France/Prussia and France/Canada is the main one. Also cameos USUK, Spamano, GerIta, Russia/Ukraine, and a few others.
Rating: M
Warnings: Sex, sensuality, drunken revelry
Summary: It’s his birthday, and France glows. Deanon from the Kink Meme.
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Comments

[jedishampoo]

I enjoyed this, and the little bits and pieces of character that were put in there so well and subtly (England's brimstone words, love it). :)

As for France ... well, I dunno if it will help, but for me it's a distinct separation between fact and fiction. In real life, I would hate someone who acted like that. But France in Hetalia is a totally fictional character and has enough fun/cute points that I just just laugh off the groping. Because nobody non-fictional was actually harmed in the groping.

It's how I love some villains, and even heroes, despite the fact that they're total dicks: it's fantasy-land.

[starsong24]

You could try thinking of him as someone whose sense of social boundaries is slightly skewed -- not autistic or anything that serious; he just doesn't grasp that physical contact or groping is considered inapproprate in many situations. He's a highly tactile person, but there's no malicious intent, simply incomprehension.

Would that help?

[anonymous]

Oh I loved this one back at the kink meme... Sad to hear you won't be finishing it, I really am.

As for your problem... Well, I've long since stopped caring about Hetalia canon. I only stay for the fics. And so I consider pretty much any characterization that makes sense from either the historical or the cultural perspective as valid. And well, sometimes ones that don't even make sense but I like anyway.
So if you are able to, you could separate hetalia canon France from your preferred version of him.

The same anon

[anonymous]

Actually, there's another thing. I wasn't going to mention this because I thought you might not want random anons commenting on your personal problems... But I changed my mind since you seem to be pretty open about things, to a certain extent at least

[anonymous]

I wanted to see if I could write France having consensual sex with other adults.

...I can’t do it. Not anymore. Not for lack of trying and wanting, to, though. He’s not a good character or person, not after the behavior he exhibits towards characters in the manga that do not want him to touch them or have sex with him.

If what France does is so objectionable, why is it okay for other countries to violently rape him in your stories?

tl;dr It's not.

[lenarix_klinde]

...And I know that now.

I wrote this--and a lot of things I will never stop being sorry for--at a time when I was still trying to get my depression, my writer's block, and my self-injuring tendencies under control. France was both a convenient proxy to hurt and a way to try to get other people angry and hateful towards me, because I was honestly addicted to other people saying that my writing and worldview was horrible and I was a horrible person.

It was manipulative and wrong of me, and I know that now.

I've since cut ties with this fandom and this particular writing journal. There are a lot of things I regret and wish I could take back--but at this point I've apologized and relapsed so many times that I think at this point, the sincerest apology I could give would be to make a clean cut with these fandoms and this writing journal and start afresh elsewhere. Or delete this journal, but a lot of people seem to like some of my older writing, so for now I'm leaving it as is.

...I hope that answers your question. Be well.

Your other fill for this prompt

[anonymous]

Thanks for trying, again. I commented, I just didn't want to out myself because of the huge flame war on the other fill.