0 7 0. T H U N D E R S T O R M {kang.min}
before i begin... this is just my take on how youngwoon is doing ever since the suspension. as a fan, i personally think that the only people who can subdue youngwoon are jungsoo, chul, jongwoon and maybe ryeonggu and hyukjae? but having ming do it... it's like a contrast? like the person who normally gets bullied by him is the one who can really point out the truth to him in times like these? i don't know how to explain it... but yeah, that's how it is. and i happen to come across letters between the 2 woons and i realised how rough youngwoon really really is. his tough image that we see is probably one of the few things of sj that we see that isn't faked and while i hate this kind of character, i still love him for being true to himself, unlike leader who we all know... *sighs* but back to my point, this is a total contrast from what we see. i believe... that however tough someone seems to be, there's still that soft side of them inside. and... the tougher you try to come off as, the softer you actually are... so yep, here's a soft side of youngwoon imagined by me.
take this as my hopes for sj, i don't know, but all i really want is just for them to have a 4jib. i can't be bothered anymore, abt geng's case, abt kibum's MIA and the crap that netizens give to him, and about all the other controversies and whatever shit they have against sj. all i care abt now is that time is running out, and 13 or not, 4jib needs to be completed. i don't know if chullie oppa will be safe from leaving, but it's probably a very high chance that teukie oppa will have to leave for army soon... and i hope to see SJ comeback one last time before he leaves... so... 영운오빠, 돌아와... 빨리 돌아와!
100 Super Junior Fiction Challenge:
Title: Thunderstorm
Pairing: #70 kang.min
The dorm was quiet today as most of the members were out. Almost everyone had schedules today, and some of the members were away in China. Youngwoon and Sungmin were the only two at home today. For some reason, Youngwoon has been sleeping in at the dorm lately and not going home. Sungmin didn’t understand why this man refused to go back to his own home to sleep but chose to sleep on their couch… but then, that was his Youngwoon hyung and he really didn’t have a say with what he wants to do.
It was raining heavily outside and those sudden roars of thunder woke Youngwoon up from his sleep. Although he was a big man, he had this irrational fear for thunder roars, especially big and loud ones like the one that’s roaring out in the open right now.
He couldn’t go back to sleep, so he decided that he would wake up and get himself hot chocolate. But just when he stepped out of Eunhyukkie’s room, he immediately regretted it.
Sungmin was just standing outside the room glaring at him.
He knew what the boy was thinking.
To be truthful, he didn’t want it either. He spent the whole of the night up, crying with Teukie hyung and Eunhyukkie. He missed the stage, he missed being together with the members, he missed everything about performing.
He really truly missed it.
But there was nothing he could do about it.
And so he spends his days in the dorm, sulking and sleeping and waking up and eating. It… kind of became a routine. A scary routine.
“I know you hate me and everything but I’m still going to say it,” Sungmin started. Youngwoon flinched. He didn’t want to listen. “Rather than stay over here and live off us, how about doing something useful and let Teukie hyung worry less about you? It’s not like he doesn’t already have Hyuk Jae to worry about.” Youngwoon flinched once again but made no movement or any attempt to interrupt. “How about cleaning up this place? Or finding something to learn? Or to lose weight? You know you will still have to get back on that stage one day right? Or are you going to be this loser and coward and hide in this dorm forever? Just get yourself back up and make a comeback already!
It’s not just words like ‘I learnt my lesson already’ that suffice. You want to make a comeback, you prove it to the company, to the directors, to Seonsaengnim that you can make a comeback. It’s not just sitting here and acting remorseful that will suffice. It’s getting yourself back up and showing them that you have already improved.”
Youngwoon knew that.
He knew that ages ago.
Teukie hyung told him the same thing.
Even Ryeowookie and Eunhyukkie told him the same thing.
He knew all these.
But since when was actions easier than talk?
He wanted to change. He wanted to go back on the stage. He wanted to improve himself.
But who was helping? Who was encouraging him? Who was supporting him?
No one. Not even himself.
There was a flash of lightning.
Youngwoon flinched again.
The thunder roared again in the near distance.
But he wasn’t scared this time.
He was a big man… And a big man is never a coward.
take this as my hopes for sj, i don't know, but all i really want is just for them to have a 4jib. i can't be bothered anymore, abt geng's case, abt kibum's MIA and the crap that netizens give to him, and about all the other controversies and whatever shit they have against sj. all i care abt now is that time is running out, and 13 or not, 4jib needs to be completed. i don't know if chullie oppa will be safe from leaving, but it's probably a very high chance that teukie oppa will have to leave for army soon... and i hope to see SJ comeback one last time before he leaves... so... 영운오빠, 돌아와... 빨리 돌아와!
100 Super Junior Fiction Challenge:
Title: Thunderstorm
Pairing: #70 kang.min
The dorm was quiet today as most of the members were out. Almost everyone had schedules today, and some of the members were away in China. Youngwoon and Sungmin were the only two at home today. For some reason, Youngwoon has been sleeping in at the dorm lately and not going home. Sungmin didn’t understand why this man refused to go back to his own home to sleep but chose to sleep on their couch… but then, that was his Youngwoon hyung and he really didn’t have a say with what he wants to do.
It was raining heavily outside and those sudden roars of thunder woke Youngwoon up from his sleep. Although he was a big man, he had this irrational fear for thunder roars, especially big and loud ones like the one that’s roaring out in the open right now.
He couldn’t go back to sleep, so he decided that he would wake up and get himself hot chocolate. But just when he stepped out of Eunhyukkie’s room, he immediately regretted it.
Sungmin was just standing outside the room glaring at him.
He knew what the boy was thinking.
To be truthful, he didn’t want it either. He spent the whole of the night up, crying with Teukie hyung and Eunhyukkie. He missed the stage, he missed being together with the members, he missed everything about performing.
He really truly missed it.
But there was nothing he could do about it.
And so he spends his days in the dorm, sulking and sleeping and waking up and eating. It… kind of became a routine. A scary routine.
“I know you hate me and everything but I’m still going to say it,” Sungmin started. Youngwoon flinched. He didn’t want to listen. “Rather than stay over here and live off us, how about doing something useful and let Teukie hyung worry less about you? It’s not like he doesn’t already have Hyuk Jae to worry about.” Youngwoon flinched once again but made no movement or any attempt to interrupt. “How about cleaning up this place? Or finding something to learn? Or to lose weight? You know you will still have to get back on that stage one day right? Or are you going to be this loser and coward and hide in this dorm forever? Just get yourself back up and make a comeback already!
It’s not just words like ‘I learnt my lesson already’ that suffice. You want to make a comeback, you prove it to the company, to the directors, to Seonsaengnim that you can make a comeback. It’s not just sitting here and acting remorseful that will suffice. It’s getting yourself back up and showing them that you have already improved.”
Youngwoon knew that.
He knew that ages ago.
Teukie hyung told him the same thing.
Even Ryeowookie and Eunhyukkie told him the same thing.
He knew all these.
But since when was actions easier than talk?
He wanted to change. He wanted to go back on the stage. He wanted to improve himself.
But who was helping? Who was encouraging him? Who was supporting him?
No one. Not even himself.
There was a flash of lightning.
Youngwoon flinched again.
The thunder roared again in the near distance.
But he wasn’t scared this time.
He was a big man… And a big man is never a coward.