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lenndrix

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Oct 30, 2005 12:22

I hate this.

What's wrong with me?

I don't want to be this self-absorbed. I don't want to be this jealous. I want to be happy. I don't want to cry anymore. I don't want to be here anymore.

Sometimes I feel like a painting. Paintings can be viewed in different ways by different people. My painting is that of a Bohemian vagrant that looks as though ( Read more... )

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silverladys9sf October 30 2005, 21:26:57 UTC

::insert fabulous "feel better" comment here::

I love you Chelsea. Don't even think of killing yourself.

lenndrix October 31 2005, 05:30:02 UTC

i love you too hun ((HUGGIES))

anonymous October 30 2005, 23:43:06 UTC

you're so... honest. i admire that, i've never been that way.

lenndrix October 31 2005, 03:33:07 UTC

What do you mean?

To the Sistine Chapel tactheantidog October 31 2005, 00:26:55 UTC

Suicide is cowardice personified.

And if you want to go by that analogy of painting/patron (it doesn't do our situation justice, but whatever) I'm not in other galleries, admiring other art; I'm outside, on the sidewalk, waiting for some annoying security guard to let me back in so I can get back to admiring my painting.

You think I have the slightest interest in other girls here? I mean, did I have an interest in other girls in Vancouver? Believe me, if I was stupid or blind enough to be looking for other girls, I would have done it before moving the the muslim-fundamentalist city where everyone speaks another language.

You have my heart. And I can't start giving away what I don't have anymore, now can I?

One day we will look back and laugh at this.

Re: To the Sistine Chapel lenndrix October 31 2005, 01:59:13 UTC

God I hope so. I never knew I could be so dependant on one person before.

I love you more than you could ever imagine.