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Jul 18, 2005 15:42

i did everything for fatima, i loved her so much, she was my best friend, but where are you friends when you really need them, i hurt so much inside, but the two of my best friends, kiea and fatima, never call me to see how i am doing, we don't hang out, we barely speak, where are my friends, i'll tell you were, having a good time at the peacock, ( Read more... )

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desolatekitty July 20 2005, 02:07:33 UTC

yeah..I called you and I broke up with you. you accepted. and we broke up. you don't have to sit there and not have fun either chris. that's what you can do..you can go and do whatever you want...you've always been able to ( ... )

omari July 21 2005, 05:51:55 UTC

conceited much?
"I told you it would be easier if I made you hate me. If you truly hated me."

I'm not sure if I understand the logic behind that. I mean, I see what you were going for.. but.. you're saying things would be easier if you purposefully hurt dude enough for him to hate you.. and brought the feeling of hate into his life... to consume him. and that somehow seemed like a good idea? a better alternative? interesting.

Maybe dude just needs you. weird situation. if you're the person his emotions are vested in...the one he goes to with anything and everything about his life.. and suddenly the problem is WITH you...

that doesn't negate the fact that you're still needed to comfort and etc.. just a little bit more difficult now. and odd. as a detached and slightly callous person, I'm curious to see how this all plays out.

later fatima.

desolatekitty July 21 2005, 16:42:41 UTC

maybe I am.

or maybe I use conceit.

anyway.

well I already brought pain and sorrow and bitterness, so why would it matter anymore?

I know I'm the queen of giving up. I wallow in it.'

and by me being around how is that helping? he said maybe we shouldn't talk ot anything..maybe that'll help him. I think it may.

i really don't know *what* to do.

omari July 21 2005, 05:45:22 UTC

heartbreak sucks ( ... )

lennysmalls July 21 2005, 08:40:56 UTC

believe me when i say your words are welcomed and appreciated, being one of fatima's best friends i know you you know her very well and any words of advice are taken to heart, and please do not think i mean to drag you into any of this, i didn't ask for any of this, i am confused still to why she broke up with me and what she is doing and how me now being in her life is suppose to help when i've been able to help her so much, i sucks bc i feel like i've lost my best friend, i bitter and angry bc of how she is taking the break up, she is so apathetic it kills me, it makes me feel like i meant nothing to her, i know i did mean something but i don't see it now, i've never thought of it until you said it but i guess i do have to deal with most of the pain alone and noone will know how much i really hurt, i could wish for nothing more than to go back to what we had before all of this, but i understand that i can't go back, all i can hope for is that we can still be friends, i am really trying, but i dont really feal like she is making an ( ... )