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[leo_tigerman86]

Just once, i wish I could be an animal instead of a human being. this way, I can just cut loose and just go crazy and others will understand. The pent up frustration, the internal dilemma, all the problems in the world can just blow out in one moment. But unfortunately, I'm not an animal. Rage and frustration just has to go back into that bottle.

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[cougarfang]

*hugs* Try writing out your rage? Dun have to be in your LJ... just let it out.

Someone once told one of my online friends (who was also anguishing about growing up) this, which I saved because it rung true with me:

There is truly no need to grow up.
I haven't done it, and I know many "adults" who haven't, either.
The key is pretending that you are grown-up. To look at all of those nasty grown-up things (balancing checkbooks, working, worrying) as a game. A nice, happy, make-believe game.
Like playing dress-up when you were younger.
"I think today I'll pretend to be grown-up."
Just like a four-year-old would say: "I think today I'll pretend to be a cat."

[leo_tigerman86]

i wish it could be that easy for me. truely, I can pretend to be this or that. But as mask is still a mask. and sooner or later, that mask will consume the person. The more you wear the mask, the more the mask becomes a part of you. And then you'll have to wear a mask to pretend what you used to be.