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As I gaze upon the horizon, i feel my soul take flight. The ever feeling pain and ache of my body slips away as my mind goes blank and my soul soars free. Each cloud cushions my flight as I soar into the baby blue sky. The vastness of the land lets me feel small and insignificant in the wheels of destiny. I fly higher than I ever flew before...
then reality calls, and I fall. Fast and hard, my body trembles and my soul rockets back. Braced, my body feels the slam as my soul joins back with my body. Confined once more, my mind, body, and soul reunites as it arises to face another day.
Basically....a bunch of ramblings to show a bit of feeling. It's crazy how some people view things.
Have you ever wondered about the human soul? I think I heard from Char that there was this movie called 22 grams? when people die, they suddenly wiegh 22 grams lighter? something like that. But I was just recently thinking, how does one define the soul? So many people think of it as some sort of angel, a presense, something that you can not see, feel, nor touch. well, maybe feel cus of those paranormal activities and stuff.
But anyways, just been thinking about it and all. Like...soulmates. do you believe you have a soulmate? There is a perfect someone out there, that you will someday meet. Or maybe you've met, and just need to realize that the person is your soulmate, yadda yadda. Do you think that is actually real? I've been thinking about it...and i just feel that my soul wants that to happen. Half of the time, I feel half full. the other half is when I fill it up with some other stuff. But there are so many things which i feel can be defines as a soulmate. Like right now, I feel that my soulmate is having the company of others. The feeling that you are not alone. Oh, and it is true that the worst feeling in the world is to be alone in a group. If you don't understand, be glad, cus you never want that feeling.
Hm...other than the fact I feel like i'm expelling my soul, my mind is dog gone insane. School's becoming a mess, and I'm starting to think the life of a hobo is better than my life right now. Which is kind of stupid cus you know that everything is much better than it wouls be as a hobo. But I'm thinking of that right now, because a hobo knows where he stands. I don't. I'm completely lost in a 1 room complex. or at least, thats how it feels.
yeah...all this touchy feely stuff is really getting at me. It's times like these in which I wonder if this is what a womans mind goes through when they are going through their period. Cus I sure think that my mind is spazzing out. I just hope that people in the insane asylum aren't thinking like this, cus then my idea of the crazy people locking the sane people might actually be true. or the crazy people locking up the sane and the exceptionally crazy...or something like that. But isn't that the whole meaning behind orderly chaos? The perfect world can only exist if it lives in an imperfect surrounding. Contrasting makes the sweet sweeter. or something like that.
Spinning around like a hurricane. But this hurricane has no calm center. Nothing sane or there in which I can focus on. strange how when the world starts to crumble around you, people find peace. But once people find peace, they try to find something to tear it down.