I tend to look alot less threatening to people than I really tend to be.

"I'm afraid that when you get a girlfriend that you'll forget about me"

Funny, it feels like its happening to me instead.
I think love, like time, must be artifical in that humanity created it and is not apart of nature.
Animals don't seem to tell time or love another.
and we are animals are we not?

I think so anyway.

tonight was kinda cool

still going to off myself

gotta end it in a high note..

this ones for you, kirk...much love

I hear about how everyone else is having new friends in college. How everything is a little tiresome but still very easy and fun ( Read more... )

I've yet to explain to someone how life feels.

but

It is like everyone around me is moving forward and I am stuck, standing in place. Sooner or later I'll be standing alone, with everyone too far to see.

and unfortunately, no one will ever know.

I just deleted a bunch of people off my myspace ( Read more... )

I feel left out.
My friends no longer try and spend time with me.
They go as far as to see if I'm online or not and thats it.
Whatever, "friends".

I don't need anyone.
I can be buried alone.

I am such a failure ( Read more... )

I love Regina Spektor

I'm hoping all the promises I make to myself I will keep.
Because theres nothing more pathetic then failing yourself after you've failed everyone else.

One day I'll be normal again, sure.
I am looking forward to Josh's birthday

Slowly I can feel the ability to resist falling apart ( Read more... )