the ebb and flow of nothingness
seems to really be "rocking my world", so to speak.
now i want to be rocked to sleep.
how can an invisible force be so powerful o_o
i just can't make it out here, and i can't take anymore "enlightenment"

warning! another stupid rant...
so tired of people; hate group work; (hate working in general); people, they're depressing, and a consistent disappointment (90% of the time anyway). what would i give for some solid solo time

ever feel like the pawn of the world? or maybe even lower than that... I am the mere chess board, the bloody battle field that the pieces, including the pawns, those peasants, trample and disregard.

what better time than now??

later :)

gender neutrality
that's what it's all about

the love is inside me, and that's where it will stay
the love is inside me, and that's where it will stay
the love is inside me, and that's where it will stay

i'm out of time, and i'm still procrastinating, wow, a record low ( Read more... )

Happy birthday to the beloved

sooooooooooo, I've been twisting my guts in knots (somewhat literally) thinking I was failing Locke (yeah, that's right, I'm talking about a real deal F for a course). Not only am I not failing, I'm in a much better position than I was before!! And it gets even better... the Prof. is giving us all of the questions (plus some extra of course) in ( Read more... )

I'm just now figuring out why my performance at Cal is getting progressively worse. I try to do everything by myself; no group work. That does NOT work here. I'm in a vicious cycle too; when I'm doing poorly, I distance myself even more from everyone, thinking I'll get better and rejoin "the group", but no; it just gets worse, and I push ( Read more... )