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I need a life. I need my course to start.
We now have a full house- the forth (Neil) just moved in. He seems ok. I've made an effort to be friendly. Paula on the other hand is acting really funny with them both. I thought I was imagining it. On Friday she came home and said to me would I like to go for a drink etc and I thought how strange that she should ask me and not Phil. It was like she was pusposely not inviting him so I did. When Neil came in today she wouldn't look at him or make conversation even though he made an effort with her. I'm a bit confused.
I've spent far too much time with Sarb this weekend. I cooked for him on Saturday and Sunday night. What am I doing? He gets me into such deep conversations and it makes me uncomfortable. He's made it extremely clear he doesn't want me and I feel really funny being there when he does that. Anyway I was pretty mean to him when he called me today. He was complaining that he's fallen out with people who he keeps borrowing money from and I told him that he was crap with money, a complete hypocrite and that he had a reputation as a scrounger that was well deserved. He doesn't take criticism well!! Perhaps I should have just said 'yes um' and not bothered speaking my mind. It's just that he goes on about this stuff all the time.
Laura took me out to a mystery location on Saturday. That was cool. We ended up in an old pub and had home made burgers. It was posh deepest leicestershire where you hear people talking about A-level Latin. The waiter fancied Laura of course. I shouldn't go anywhere with Laura. She does nothing for my confidence. I need to find some ugly friends.
I've just listened to the Tulip Touch for my course. It's a children's book but it's very good. Kinda got to me. Children get great books.
Sarb's just called. Wants to come round. Am I being used? Does he do this because he's lonely? and do I let him because I've got no friends?