cher once said, "and the beat goes on." while she was loved by a man that made her more human. i finally found that i can love things. i love to feel of my legs as they hate me for making them work more than they should have. i love the feeling of almost not being able to walk. i get up in the wee hours of the morning before anyone else and breath ( Read more... )

i didn't know how bad it had gotten until i heard the familier midi song and instead of excitement that it might be who i thought it was i was dreading the thought. i didn't even want to speak. i needed time. it was heinous. im not sure what i feel now but it is better than it was before. i think i just need to take a step back from my life. get ( Read more... )

somehow i have let go of my life. i just let it go. i don't know if i like it or not. i am just trying to get used to it. i don't know some of the things i used to ( Read more... )

i talked to my friend last night that made many things all right and after i had turned off the light i fell asleep to dream a dreamless sleep ( Read more... )

if thats how its gotta be. thats how its gotta be.

but you won't find anyone better than me.

yeah. so you're beautiful.

good night beautiful.

tomarrow night i am going to a math and physics club concert and will finally be able to lay my little indie hands on some music that is graceful and coveted.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
^excitement as evident with many exclaimation points^

a few years ago in a far off land there was a young man with little to drive his life but his meager plans for a life of contented living. he wished to travel and loved being alone. he would sit for hours and read books. tomes about life and the concept of property and why we do what we do. he would smell a aroma that lifts his body clean off the ( Read more... )

a really good friend of mine called me on saturday night to let me know that she is going back to college next week and she wanted to get into my schedule early cause we never seem to find time to hang out. and then it seems that i am the one that won't stop calling wanting to hang out. i miss her when she is gone. not like a person misses a lover ( Read more... )

i rode my bike to work today, the long way. not a nice long way that one might take to enjoy nature and love life but the long way with lots of hills and i drank milk before i left and i felt gross and couldnt catch my breath and the inside of my body was burning up but my outside was freezing cold. im not planning on going that way again. the ( Read more... )

yesterday i was in a parade with my brother to support local politics. we were dressed as pirates with tall boots and fancy pants and so much bling i pillaged from me mum's jewelery box. i scared and entertained kids and adults alike. and yelled a lot and gave some serious crazy eye, from the only eye that wasn't under the eye patch. my ears were ( Read more... )