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im confused about myself
so anything you read, could change in the next five minutes.
im so dumb, whatever.
p.s. i still want animal cookies =D
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I thought about it
thought about it like crazy
thought, yeah, i want to talk to you about it. thought, itll make me feel better. thought i could actually go through with it. but something is holding me back. i think its the fact that i know, deep down, that you arent feeling what im feeling. you arent confused like i am. you are fine. everything with you is ok.
but i wanna kno. i really wanna know what you are thinking. if you ever felt the way i am feeling now. if you were ever confused.
even if i did talk to you about it, i dont think it would matter. its not like we talk now; ive got nothing to lose. but i do. ive got everything to lose. all the lies ive listened to and all of the things i made myself believe. ive got myself to lose all over again. i dont like the truth, im so used to lies. dont hurt me.
Im thinking about it
i really am
i need to
i need to get this out there. i need to feel good for real. not just when im with another guy and im not thinking about him. i need to feel good no matter what. you are holding me back.
im thinking about you
thinking like crazy