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so i felt bad for myself all day. i was sulking. i know i shouldnt, but i did anyways. i prolly couldve been happy but it was just one of those days where i wanted to feel bad about myself. i felt bad about the way i looked today, the way he didnt talk to me, the way im confused about him, the way i didnt really get to talk to my friends, and how im so confused in math (which btw, i think im starting to understand) so i decided i was going to complain, not outloud of course, but i did. i was complaining on everyting today. im sorry. i hate it when i get in these moods. but it was just one of those days. im upset because i was feeling great on mon. like my normal, peppy self plus some, but then yesterday i was tired again and today too. im like wat the heck?! i hate this its frustrating. cuz i wanna feel good, like not tired and just happy, but im not and its frustrating.
i wanted to talk to you sooo badly today. but you avoided me? wat was with that? so thats why sometimes i dont even think we are friends. you act like you dont care. but then other times you act like you care a lot. so do you? i dont even know anymore. why do i care what you think anyways. maybe i do like you? (maybe thats my answer alli?i still donno) ah i hate boys. why are you so stupid and careless. try thinking. seriously. ugh.
i dont want to be sick anymore.
and i wish you were consistant in the way you acted towards me.
im mean seriously
is that too much to ask for