It's been much, much too long since I've updated this thing. Things have changed, other things haven't.

I seem to have lost any skill I ever had for communicating how I feel.

I finally saw the new Harry Potter movie and thought it was brilliant. I'd see it again for sure.

I feel old and weathered today. Not sure why.

~Ryan

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It's fucking 4am and I can't sleep. This time change is not boding well with me. It's as if everything in me is rebelling ( Read more... )

It seems like everybody has the fucking answers to everything except me. Everyone knows why I'm doing what I'm doing ("You're afraid to be happy", "You're scared", "Youre confused ( Read more... )

Dare You To Move - SwitchfootWelcome to the planet ( Read more... )

So I get home from visiting my brother in the hospital and I check my email, and lo and behold theres a letter from this guy (who I thought was a friend). He make some claims about something that made me ill. I've just finished throwing up and I feel kind of dizzy and sick. I dont know what to do. What do I do now? It figures that once I ( Read more... )

Jesse had surgery and he's stable. I cant believe how weak I was during this whole thing. I guess it comes partly from the regret I have in not being there when Ethan died (I was in the emergency room), and partly from just plain fear in losing someone else I love. I feel so very old lately... like I've been through alot. I'm ready for the ( Read more... )

I wonder if everyone could put my brother Jesse in your thoughts. He's in the hospital and not doing too well. I'm really worried about him. I'd really appreciate it ( Read more... )

I'd have to say that I disagree with this test. Itend to think that the more opposite you are with someone, the better you get along sometimes.... But then again...


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Advanced Big 30 Personality Test Results
Sociability ||||||||||||||||||||| 66% Aggressiveness |||||||||||||||||| 58% Assertiveness ||||||||| 26% Activity Level ||||||||| 22% Excitement-Seeking |||||||||||||||||| 54% Enthusiasm |||||||||||||||||||||||| 78% Extroversion ||||||||||||||| 50% Trust |||||||||||||||||||||||| 78% ( Read more... )