Community College
I have this lame-ass assignment to write about something I accomplished and what skills and qualities I utilized to do this. I hate this. Why should I even bother doing something like this if I'm not going to take it seriously? I don't feel like I've really accomplished anything. At least not anything worth writing about. The example on the prompt is "I earned straight A's last semester." Boring unless you have dyslexia or something or the semester before last you were failing all of your classes, and a drug addict. Anyway, I didn't earn straight A's last semester but I used to in high school. Attendance was a big part of that. Since I wasn't rebellious or daring enough not to go and my teachers were nice enough to tell us exactly what we needed to know. I also did homework back then. Extreme introversion, feeling disconnected, and the need for some type of outside validation. Something happened, I don't know what but something did- but I didn't talk back then. So writing to my teachers was like one of my main connections to the outside world. Maybe I just gave up on interactions that weren't sure to lead to someone having a high opinion of me. Everyone should like me, I'm insecure like that. But I never believed anyone that did claim to like me. My happy little report cards always cheered me up though. Even though I knew it was all fake. I was like a little robot in a little groove and school- at least the academics- was the only think I was good at. It wasn't even hard.
So I'm definitely not going to write that. I've done things that were more difficult for me but they're going to seem kinda lame ass- and they were really only difficult because of the anxiety I felt. I don't work hard. I'm not a motivated, go-getter. I think big sometimes but it's hell to try and make myself follow through. I don't think I ever have. Thusly- this assignment sucks.
Also- the teacher pissed me off last week when she said, "Ericka is so shy blah blah blah." I know it was just a little off-the-cuff comment and she didn't mean any harm by it but it drives me crazy. Okay, I'll admit I am shy but that's a far to simple explanation for why I'm usually quiet in that class. Aaaaaand I do talk anyway. When she said that my partner, from an earlier discussion, said I wasn't shy when talking one-on-one. I'm just opposed to interjecting stupid comments into a class full of people. It doesn't feel natural. So sorry.
I'm thinking of just making up some imaginary accomplishment. Does anyone have ideas for imaginary accomplishments? I don't want to claim anything to grandiose. Absurdity is good though.