she gets why i like hanson.

after awhile, i just snap into fake it mode. walk around with a big smile on my face and laugh at everything im supposed to. and im in that mode right now. ill just go back and listen to hanson. if you listen to their lyrics you will understand why i like them. its just covered up by a catchy tune.

i think im having a relapse. i can only numb it and fake it for so long. i had to work my hardest to resist cutting today. i dont really feel like i can write anything personal on here anymore. thanks annonymous ( Read more... )

i dont really have much to say right now.

but im at school.

thanks olivia for the comment. ::smile::. so youre coming up this weekend?? you have to tell me about my past life thing and my little guide people, ok? thanks.

i think that night was really an eye opener. i really found out that people do care for me, and how much they do.

love<333

i need some meaning i can memorize, the kind i have always seems to slip my mind.

if you pull on my hair and bite me like that

i fucking love this feeling.

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Ich WÜNSCHE ETWAS, DAS IMMER GLEICHBLEIBEND IST UND NIE ÄNDERT.

if only it were possible.