oh, the 22nd was my 4 month mark of not cutting.

i think i want to re-do my journal. its been awhile since ive done that. but first ill have to find a picture to center it around.. any ideas?

thats funny because (a) i dont like tool (b) i dont like the drums and (c) i want to work at starbucks

how come nobody is ever online when i am????

update. because im "doing homework"

my infatuation gave me a hug today :)

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i wish i could make some little post saying something on the lines of "im feeling better now" or "im happy now." but i cant. i dont know was better is. and happiness is the biggest fucking lie ever.

i hate how i feel... excluded from everybodys life. i was reading back on everybodys entries, and they all seem perfectly happy without me there. i always hoped that i mattered atleast a little bit. but i guess i dont.
maybe i should have died from kidney failure that night, hardly anybody would have noticed i was gone. not that i was ever really ( Read more... )

i hate how some people only talk to me when they want me to do something for them.