fifth day unable to eat without wanting to shit out all my insides. letting work consume me and not even minding all that much. and most importantly, trying to ignore a little baby heartbreak that weighs a ton and hurts a lot. lessons are important and learning is fun, right? i'll take it from me and no one else, i don't want to hear a single i-

cookies, cakes and scones washed down with beer, wine or coffee. dressing up, buying clothes for work and buying clothes for play. riding my bike just to ride my bike and enjoying plenty of sex. it's no wonder i am healthy and happy as a bear.

I can hear my grandparents outside,
"Are you going to shine shoes or play in the concrete?"
We are normal.

i'm all moved in and we're givin' it another go!

things that are good:
maybe the perfect job for me
moving to a house two seconds away from this job
not having to pay rent anymore
seeing my family a lot
seeing my boyfriend a lot
exercising a lot
my bike
my boots
my life

things that are bad:
i need to pack
i'm hungry

we could have just taken the day one lazy toss and turn at a time, i would have been happy.

procrastination is killing me! cooking for fun is fulfilling me. good reads are tempting me. newness is tickling me. jim guthrie is dancing with me. holiday specials are tricking the shit out of me.
i need help with something girlfriend-y. girlfriends, come to me.

ahhhhhhhh mmmmmmmmmmm excitement!
i think the new year's going to bring me a new job, a new home and hopefully more time for crafting. but new year? it's thanksgiving! i hate updating my livejournal; i love my everything else.

I know I'm still a baby, I'm not asking for a husband. I just want to love somebody! I feel so full, all the time, ready to explode. Everything is beautiful to me, everything deserves praise. I just want to share that feeling. I just want someone to tell stories to at the end of the day. Life is really cool. I want to feel cool next to somebody. I ( Read more... )

this is a message for carlie. it says:
HI CARLIE! i missed you at my table last night.
see you later!
xox your friend