I do not know what to make of people around here. I know that some are diagnoses with issues revolving around sexual hyperactivity but why does this get projected onto me.
After examining the comments, I think that Haku was trying to imply relations between us as well as that my genitalia would tear him apart. The very thought of it made me uncomfortable, not for the pain factor but that it was directed at me.
Naruto seemed to be confused that no one could have a lack of libido, not to be sexually stimulated by anything. After everyone had retired to bed, I thought about it and no matter what I thought of, killing or not. Nothing worked. Do I have another disorder? As if I do not have enough already.
I was taught that sexual desire was only a tool to bring weakness. Perhaps this was why peers would only look but not touch. Did I erase this myself or did I never have it?
Maybe I should listen to his words and try to explore. It is part of nature he says but just the thought of it makes my stomach knot up to the point where I feel physically sick.
This looks to be one more mark against the escalating amount of issues that I have.