so i had my first psychology exam today. it's safe to say that i could be compared to a savage nomadic beast, and the test was something like settlers living peacefully in little town. i came into town and pulled down there clothes lines, and fucked with their poorage (like put wrong ingredients in like garlic or maybe some curry), and pissed in ( Read more... )

yeah, another guy relapsed last night. so it's been tough. we have two interviews tomorrow for two new guys just getting out of milam. on top of that my grandma went into the hospital last night, because she couldn't breathe and thought she was going to die. luckily, she is doing okay, but it was pretty scary. and i also got a call from my mom, and ( Read more... )

i had a pretty good weekend. so Sunday i didn't follow through with the original plans, and it turned out to be a good day. Cassi and i drove to deception pass and chilled at the beach there. then we drove all the way down whidbey island, had a nice dinner in Langley. fucking small towns, Sunday night is trivia night. i thought that was cool, but i ( Read more... )

so just hanging out at the oxford house. i had a really good day yesterday. i got to catch up with an old friend, and kind of fixed things there... so that was cool. She was pretty amazed at the fact that I wasn't high. she was so used to me being high when we were dating and what not. it's hard to think it's been so long since we've hung out, it ( Read more... )

yeah i had court today. twas for probation violation. it was pretty interesting. for once i was as prepared as i could be. i had proof of inpatient treatment, being compliant in outpatient, a letter from my sponsor, a letter from the house president of the oxford house i am in, and proof of being enrolled in college. i waited for literally three ( Read more... )

well things are going well - going to shoreline community college for a class, i really like being around people now. my anxiety has gotten a lot less worse. i'm starting to talk to people more. i'm opening up, smiling, learning, just doing my thing. i'm excited as of late. it's nice to want to read a text book and learn and trying to find studdy ( Read more... )

things are going okay. i still have this uneasy feeling in my stomach, my anxiety isn't getting any better. people keep saying it'll get better, and i believe them for once. i just don't know what the fuck i want to do tonight. i'm going to eat dinner and see a movie with my parents, but after that i don't know. my curfew got extended until one, ( Read more... )

back from rehab. got a cell phone. living in an oxford house (clean/sober house). so yeah.

packing my shit up. getting for rehab on thursday.

i feel inexhorble.