well i've had an interesting incounter this past week. i slammed my right index finger in the door at work so now both my mom and i are crippled. it sucks because i can barely move it. let alone barley get into the shower.i can't stand it because it's making me miserable... i have the worst luck in the world. the worst. it needs to get better.

it's ( Read more... )

i don't know how much more Emo.. i can feel.

i feel so worthless...

i feel like no one cares.

stop testing me lord and having people leave me.

i want to stop growing older... stop it please.

i'm screaming "STOP IT"

Christmas is always over too soon. always! the older i get the more it seems unreal. i guess you can say... the magic is no longer there. i love being with my family though. last night was at my Dad's side. nice to talk with my aunt and uncle. i love them all.
today didn't open gifts until 7:00 p.m. my dad worked today at the hospital. not a big ( Read more... )

last night was fun. random. hung out with random people. today i was called into work for a few hours. then i really want to hang out with Carlee. but i honestly don't see that happening. John needs to call me. tomarrow is my first day of Christmas. this year i'm having three ( Read more... )

sometimes in life... the hardest thing is finding out who you are. but once you've found YOU it all makes sense. i guess i "found" myself a lot earlier than most people. although the price is quite rewarding it's also brings forth a big decision. at lease it has for me. i love my friends... i love them all. but it's hard. it's hard to be friends ( Read more... )

today was awesome! first of all i looked like shit... but my day completely turned around. after swimming!
well first off... i got a huge fat lip which looks lovely. got made fun of all 6th hr by Studinger and then won the Michigan State basketball tickets.

and honestly... i feel like i won those by fate. complete fate. i never win anything! like ( Read more... )

this weekend was a blast! Blue Mountain was so fun. i climbed it!!!! it was awesome. after the slopes were closed at like 11:00 at night James, Hannah, Pablo, Shaun, Mary, Alexis, and I all climbed it. and by the way... blue mountain is 3 times PK. it was so much fun though. the whole time. i can't begin to describe it. the bonds i created with ( Read more... )

after long anticipation... and the point where i almost gave up... once again...  he comes back around. obviously God wants me to be with him. i was at Church until 11:00 Friday night. i love Hannah Milosch. i love my time spent with her. i love the fact that i witness miracles all the time. i truly believe in God. very deeply. and i think that on ( Read more... )

i would like to start off by saying last night i was changed.
everyday i continue to grow and i realize now that all along i've just strayed from the most wonderful thing ever.
i'm sick of trying to make my life work.
i try to put all the pieces together by myself.
i realize yes... life does take effort but there is only so much you ( Read more... )

He called.
He promised he would.
He is a man of his word.
Hopefully.
Thank You God!
Please open up a moment where we can hang out. How i miss being with you!

Dinner at Pastor Sarah's tonight! Big week ahead of me.
Next weekend The Rage Trip!!! what! go green!!!!!!!!!!!!