I am sitting here with Tami and Annie. I love them. Last night was fun. Happy birthday Tami. I am sorry for being an ass hole Kelsey. I love you. I guess arguments just build a better relationship. Or at least i hope so. I want times to stay like this.

I feel like i cant find whatever is suposed to make me happy right now

I have realized as i change, my relationship with my parents changes as well. Which isnt too good.

(  Loser X Loser? )

Friday... School... Kelsinatore comes over and we get high and have orgies... i mean uh we do homework and say prayers? It was fun, we went online and mess with people and have our "good night conversations about life ( Read more... )

When you realize you want something so bad... or maybe even need, just to fufil your never ending seach of happiness, you automaticly go out of your way to find it. Maybe in the end going out of your way or, making too much effort will not get you what you have been longing for. To think I thought needing the feeling for so long will end my pain ( Read more... )

People are cruel. They think it is really funny and cool to be mean to other people but all it does is cause internal pain for the person. I just wish people can think twice about other peoples feelings and not just there reputation of being a jack ass. Although this is just what people do and how people act on the inside, "despite everything, i ( Read more... )

I finally have internet back at my house. I got this awesome new computer ( Read more... )

I am oh so very grounded right now... I am not aloud to be on the computer or the phone, and i am on both... my parentals are not home, so i take advantage of this time. Mr. Buraru got so mad at me today. I was tlaking so much so he moved my seat. Little did he know i would be talking more, so he moved me back... that was a bad idea. Then i started ( Read more... )

I have like this dead feeling...

And no its not how i feel about joey or whatever, i am over that.

Its just like i feel so zoned out

Like nothing matter at all

And like if something horrible were to happen, i wouldnt even care

I feel like i have been hurt so manny times, that my heart is repellent to any sad feelings...

But i havent even ( Read more... )

Those who dream by day
Are cognizant of many things
Which escape those
who dream only
By night.

-Edgar Allan Poe, 1809-1849

If you think about it, it makes sence

Today was really great ( Read more... )