I moved back home today with Cassie. It feels like the longest day I have ever lived. I had like no sleep at all. Absolutely none. Showered and packed. Checked out of the dorm and then loaded up her car. We stopped at McDonalds on the way home and ate some yummy food. I must be sick or something, I actually wanted a double cheeseburger. Usually ( Read more... )

I'll be moving out of the dorm in five hours. And all I want to do is cry.

I feel like he went to bed mad at me. But I doubt he'll admit to it.

Cassie was sad tonight. I hope she cheers up soon. I hate her being sad.

Im going to miss Roomie very much. I dont want to have to say goodbye.

She put new pictures up. And theres still one left of her in his room. I hate her.

I dont know when I'll be moving out the dorm. I dont have a way to move out now. Im pretty much just stuck at home with half of my things in Richmond. My parents are crazy. They treat me like crap most of the time. Usually I try to help them when I can. But they refuse to help me. Its crap. I want to move out. And never talk to them again.

I dont think I'll be drinking for awhile. I feel a little too sick this morning. Ugh.

I hate feeling like I let you down. And Im sorry.

I really wish that I would have actually gone to class this semester like I was supposed to. I just want to have that feeling of being pressured during dead week and finals week like everyone else. But Im not. I miss the feeling of actually going to class and being a part of something. Its silly that I stopped going to all of my classes. Im going ( Read more... )

Its just that I feel disgusting now. I hate myself. I hate this.

Two months today.

I dont know why I always put myself through this. Its like something I cant control. Everytime I go to look at his Myspace, I go to her Myspace. I look at her new pictures. Read her new blogs. Even read her newest comments. Shes not a very interesting person at all. I just like to try and understand what made him like her so much ( Read more... )