Last night I lost my concert virginity at a Dave Matthews Band concert. It was incredible. The violin player was sick and the saxophone made my heart melt. I guess I could have been in better company, something just didn't feel right. But shit happens, (alot of shit in this case) and I just have to learn to deal with the consequences. Tomorrow is ( Read more... )

gah i am a mess

i am not ready for so many things
i want so many things
i dont know what to do about so many things
i am not the me that i am
this isn't how i would approach any of this
but somehow i can't climb out of this hole

bleh

Last night I lost my favorite necklace the one I barely take off I think the only thing ive taken it off for are 2 proms and maybe an occasional night out. Its the only thing I've ever recieved from my family that has so much meaning and its gone. My only hope is searching for it today. Theres so much going on. There is not enough time. And I dont ( Read more... )

Today was a sick Elisha day.

I've been thinking ALOT lately. It's really not a good thing for me.

I have very important conversations to have, and very important decisions to make.

I have to make my own changes, I'm done waiting around for things to just happen.

Other then that I think I will lay low for a while until this feeling goes away

Times a flyin

its......SUMMMMER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ive been thinking about those times when i was younger and it was the last day of school before summer and all my friends who got off at the same bustop and i would run off the bus and scream and throw our backpacks around like there was nothing else more important and nowhere else we'd rather be

This morning I woke up and the first thing I found myself saying, completely involuntary (infact I didn't even know I said it until it registered in my head a few minutes later) was "too much sugar".

Then later today I was drinking tea and I was putting sugar in it and my mother said "thats too much sugar"

Shiver.

Has society and the world outside my house shaped my opinions so much? Most peoples values, morals, and basis of beliefs are rooted in their households. Credited towards their families, the people who raised them and taught them right from wrong ( Read more... )

I want all of my insides to just sprawl out on the floor for a few minutes. Just to breath.
I can't breath.
I feel like any minute now my entire body is just going to stop.