I am sitting here at 1:00 am listen to crazytown waiting for my drunk mom could come home and take care of me. She has lost one of my shirts and I need it for tomorrow, but she is to busy drinking to come home for me. Sometimes I wish she would just care lately. Atleast I only had to deal with her drinking for a bit. It sucks I feel she doesnt ( Read more... )

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I wish things were what they use to be. I lay up at night and when sleep finally takes over I dream of yesterdays. I miss things so badly. I miss when we were freinds before drugs and sex took over, I miss us before they came and ripped us apart, I miss us before feelings came up, I miss us before the lies began, and most of all I miss us before we ( Read more... )

So What is new in life. I guess I am just enjoying being in love. I love the way I feel lately. I am so bloody happy. So Sat is his bday :-D He says I have to be wet and wild in his pool for it. Oh and he wants to fuck in his pool, I guess I cant complain he will be the birthday boy ;-. Last two days kinda have sucked bc I havent been able to ( Read more... )

Last night was teh scariest night of my life

Everything so perfect on the outside
Inside everything is twisted,fucked, and coming apart

SO I changed my icon I have three new ones well there not new I have a million on my comp. So I have been thinking of Amanda alot. it not romantic thoughts,just thoughts. I cant get her out of my mind.I just wish we could go back to what it was before I feel inlove with her and whatever she feels for me. We talk and it is so different. I guess I ( Read more... )

Fear is a wicked wicked state. I am now scared I do not know why. It is the whole pancking thing, the whole having this damn anxitey disorder.Or maybe it was reading all those phobias and having a phobia of phobias . Who knowsall I know is right now I am shaking, I cant breath, my head is pounding and I feel like throwing up. Grr god this sucks . I ( Read more... )

For you can get to know me a wee bit better here are a list of all the phobias I have..and yes I really do have them some our mild case others are big one..but shh ( Read more... )

I think this is post two of the day ::sigh:: I just sit here talking the beautiful Tomorrow. I guess I am going to just write ( Read more... )

Hello loves ( Read more... )