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well yesterday was awesome. i had so much funn
i dont feel like getting into detail though because some things you just want to keep to yourself ;-) right alli
i have to get ready for bio review and then im probably going to hang out with everyone<3 again...... i hope he is there
but i think im getting really close to somthing ive wanted and if i could just get this one thing my life would be 100 times better. im not going to worry over it though if it happens it happens.... if theres one thing ive learned its that the way down is always worse then the way up.
but then theres my horoscpe:
Keep your mind on your responsibilities and don't get lost in a whirlwind of wishes and dreams. A realistic approach is required.
i have so many "dreams and wishes" and its right, instead of me being like omg omg omg omg i no its going to happen and then it doesnt... i have to just be like whatever.
and im so happy but i feel like something huge is missing from my life.. i dont know anymore
and i bet everyone that reads this is going to be like wtf is she talking about. maybe this can explain or something..
"When It Goes Down"
When it all just fits
No more waiting up 'till midnight
To see if he comes home
And it sinks in
Through these holes in your old bed sheets
You might spend your life alone
And you don't want to be alone
no not alone
When you think too much
And you came to another game
Despondent out of touch
And you reach so hard it makes you fall
For these hands that let you go
That shouldn't let you go at all
that shouldnt let you go at all
no not at all
I don't know what its like to be you babe
but from the looks I don't think I want to
and I know I've been hanging on tight
so maybe it just might mean I want you
yeah babe I want you
You know what I mean
When I say that I come from a place that hurts
You fit in my scene
And try to make everything work
You watch me turn green
I come down, yeah but I might never land
You said you'd understand
But you don't want to be there
When it goes down again
bop bop bop bop bop ba da
Staring at the ceiling
Gives me another feeling
About who you are
And you know I was really thinking
I could be another Lincoln
If I got this far
If I got this far
driving in my car
and Then I started holding on to these I couldn't keep
And the wise ass called me faggot
But I feel more like a creep
and these things creep
I watch them creep
and I dont get no sleep
And I don't know what it's like to take it slow
and from the feel I don't think I want to
no I dont want to
and I now know
And I know that it seems I'm Letting go
And things I know, I know would haunt you
and I don't want to haunt you
You know what I mean
When I say that I come from a place that hurts
You fit in my scene
And try to make everything work
You watch me turn green
I come down, yeah but I might never land
You said you'd understand
But you don't want to be there
When it goes down again
You know what I mean
When I say that I come from a place that hurts
You fit in my scene
And try to make everything work
You watch me turn green
I come down, yeah but I might never land
You said you'd understand
But you don't want to be there
you don't want to be there
you don't want to be there
When it goes down again
when it goes down again