so yesterday was ok i guess during the day...made sara a lunch and took it to her, man she could tell me to jump and i would, shit im a bitch boy...lol so anyways i got to talk to her for a little after she got out of school and got to talk to zoe:) man i miss zoe...zoobe...zobber. she always can put a smile on my face. love that baby:) cutest f- ( Read more... )

hey home got in late very late going to got o sleep, sara call me early in the morning if you see this:) sorry i didnt call at the time i was going too...

so im home now, not much really done today. didnt have to work today and i skated a little while the sun was out. went with cory and chilled for awhile with him. today was a day to me nothing really went on. today i was just calm and in my little world..lol, i missed sara's phone call.sad. well im off to watch tv and chill, sara you see this call ( Read more... )

man for the books lastnight had the be the worst:( the f-ing dreams, i never knew nightmares could make you so scared to sleep. i was fucking so scared to close my eyes. im over what i was upset about lastnight. i guess its just me, when i WANT someting so fucking bad and i cant get it i through a self pity fit. i just hurt. its just i dont tell ( Read more... )

good god! when things seem soo fucking perfect and feel so fucking right, the little things can destroy it. i know there was no room for me, but fuck i still love her. yeah i need to understand where i stand in her life, but its so hard when your blinded by love. god damn... she has me by the fucking finger. she can make my day and at the same time ( Read more... )

right now i feel kinda crappy, i had a journal entrie already to go but my computer sucks and dies on me sometimes. i wanted to see sara more and it made me sad that i didnt, i just enjoy her company alot:) even though she makes it CLEAR that we arent going to get back together im ok with it, i still like being around her. john willy is back in ( Read more... )

today is the day i needed, somethings just make everything that much better, i realized the friends and skating and the one person that makes me feel speical in this world, is the greatest thing to me. makes me want to live. no matter how bad things get you always have a chance to turn it around. yeah there is something things that make me bummed ( Read more... )

well its 2:23 am in the morning. waited up till now for a phone call. knew she wouldnt call. its ok. im a dorkon. but thought about the good old summer nights at beaverton park. im planning a goodtime at hillsboro if the stupid cops will allow it this summer. mmm summer. this weekend should be packed with crazyness! got a reception to go to, good ( Read more... )

good thing i got a call early from the sweetest voice, cuz i would have been late goin into sherwin williams...bad bad matt, did some stocking and such made a few orders then they siad i could go home:( i hope i get more hours soon. very soon. so i went and skated my little heart out at hillsboro. man that place get better and better everytime i ( Read more... )

remeber that time at the max stop, with all the passionate kisses. the way you smiled at me after that, or that time you looked up at me at 2 am in the morning and made me feel like the most greatest thing next to bread. what about that time when we would just play video games all day, and how you would count on me to get the hard goals for you on ( Read more... )