I hate this

[leuschner]

I could use a friend today. Say something nice.

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[christopher575]

It's always a pleasure running into you and I wish it happened more often.

[goldfischegirl]

I absolutely adore you, Leuschner.
When I'm in a shit mood I just watch videos of you singing Collins or Proud Mary and the world seems like so much more of a magical and wonderful place.
You are a delight to be around! I am glad we've stayed in touch.

[suxdonut]

calli, yo! soon it will all be awesome. lmk if you want me to come down there, altho if you came ovar we could bbq up our freezer full of burgers!

[arielbasom]

I find you delightful.

explaination

[leuschner]

I went on a date and it was nice. A couple of days later she said that she felt the chemistry wasn't there. I agree, it wasn't there. But it just reminds me that my chemistry is so far gone that there's no one out there to click with. I'm smart. I'm funny. I have a big heart. I'm not ugly. I do interesting things. But none of that seems to matter because no one is attracted to me. or if they are, it is so burdened with drama and complication that it either never happens or blows the fuck up or both. It's been over five years since I've gotten anything resembling a stable dating option, let alone a fulfilling relationship. I get nothing but further evidence that I am romantically incompetent and generally repulsive to women. It kills me and there's not a damn thing I can do about it. Why even bathe.