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areader221 November 20 2010, 17:33:00 UTC
I’ve started to read it at work. Idk. I just liked how Cara couldn’t make a fire and was thinking of Dahlia. And I was reading with a little smile on my face. Of course Richard came right away. He has that sixth sense when I drift somewhere away to bring me back, lol. He was like What? And I like What? And kept smiling. He felt awkward and started to talk about this paper we are fixing and kept going on and on. He came to my office couple times more. Then somebody else did and I gave up reading :\

Came home late and ran to read it, lol. In a few minutes I wasn’t smiling, my eyes were teary… Lexa, Lexa, what are you doing to your old aunty? The update is again just brilliant!!! I loved of course all scenes. Some of them made me too emotional. I guess I like our heroines too much and can’t be calm anymore then something sad or horrible happen to them.

The C/K camp scene. I loved Cara’s memories how she used to travel with Dahlia! Shorty the Owner!

Then a face-washing! Mmm! Kahlan crawled the small distance timidly, more like on ( ... )

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lexa_red November 21 2010, 05:21:29 UTC
OMG!!! Thank you so much, my teary Gizmo, you've definitely made my night in so many ways! As always, I'm so honored you can feel so tremendously and deeply for their story. *huggggs* I am also so ultra relieved you liked this update, I was actually pretty unsure about it!! XD Cara truly is Shorty the Owner LOL!! I'm only just beginning to know her, I think...

I guess I like our heroines too much and can’t be calm anymore then something sad or horrible happen to them. Awwww you don't know how much I love that! I know this journey can be brutal for them but I think it will always make their good times more precious and appreciated :D

She didn’t believe her Mistress expertise and got a few punches in a face for her sudden defiance! hahaha so true!! I sorta added that scene just for you cuz YEAH she deserved it and she needs to know that! Cara cares! lol ( ... )

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areader221 November 21 2010, 18:10:43 UTC
Lol! I wouldn't be so teary if not for your girls! I enjoy the story and the update was great: I still can't forget Cara and Dahlia with Snake, it's going to haunt me for some time. It was pretty disturbing and very emotional to me for real.

All heroines are very complicated and nothing is simply. I love the way you portrayed them-darkness, coldness w/o empathy and brutal violence mixed with child's purity and such tender selfless love in the hearts (sometimes I think "Fuck, I couldn't do it for my love" and feel a shame, lol!)

Lol! Your food moments end up with disaster! Like once Kahlan crawled to make a dinner for Shorty and later was found dead or this time she even didn't get to the apple: Cara basically pushed/punched her away to kill the snake and later K was busy 'distracting' C from her grim memories.
I guess you don't cook much, lol!

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lexa_red November 22 2010, 17:56:30 UTC
For Snake, Cara and Dahlia, ok like in Eternity, right after Dahlia says "remember when we were little girls..." Cara gets this look in her eyes and pulls her head back in a way that really haunted me. It only lasts a second, maybe not even, but it was so powerful that I kept going back to it as I tried to understand more about where they came from, I guess. Plus I also can't escape the idea that Dahlia seems to have some decent level of guilt when she talked about herself being weak back then so...also I don't think that's the last of Snake in this ;)

(sometimes I think "Fuck, I couldn't do it for my love" and feel a shame, lol!) Awww yes you would!! :D I just know it!

lol I'm so busted, no I don't cook and probably never will! XD

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areader221 November 20 2010, 18:23:51 UTC
"Be a good girl," Cara said, "and do it quick." Cara, Cara, tsk, tsk. I understand that though. With her memories coming suddenly to her she wanted a little distraction and to reach an oblivion.

I hate Snake and nothing can do about it! Even I understand that what she did was her custom and also a duty. Just some people enjoy too much their “duties”, fuck… Small shocked and exhausted Dahlia made my heart ache. And there she was, sleeping, that bitch who terrorized and tortured the children a whole day! She would love to see little Dahlia cry! Fuck! I wanted to asphyxiate her! Arrrgh!

Awww, Cara! You lost yourself cuz you gave all of you to protect baby Dahlia!<3 When she begged that creature to let to pleasure her w/o Dahlia I just couldn’t hold my tears. I cried through the whole scene. And I fucking listened “Never grow up” before I moved to the scene! It made me more unstable!

She landed on her hands and knees and crawled quickly around the bed like a small insect afraid of being trampled on by an oblivious foot. She settled ( ... )

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lexa_red November 21 2010, 05:42:14 UTC
oops sorry about Kahlan but Cara has mad needs!! I definitely see Cara being quick to resort to any sort of physical pleasure seeking in attempts to escape her memories, feelings, faults, etc idk!

OH WOW, I know, wtf how awful was Snake?! I could see her so clearly and she was fucking evil to the core, I swear. I had to restrain her like crazy, she wanted to do so much more. I was only able to really go there after you told me all about Denna and her master cuz WOW. It was definitely the most emotional part for me too... "Never Grow Up" is such a powerful and rich song with such a simple message but to me, this is ALL I thought of!! Like nothing else but this! I thought of lengths that Cara would need to go to in order to "protect" Dahlia from her "weaknesses" as she said and all the sacrifices she would've had to make to keep her alive. Above all, Dahlia was just so incredibly loved and I hope that shows...

Here I was completely upset. What an image! Amazing and vivid and hurtful! And then Cara wants little hurt Dahlia to feel ( ... )

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areader221 November 21 2010, 19:16:36 UTC
That's ok, lol! Kahlan has to take care of her Mistress's needs. Cuz Mistress Cara takes care of her, feeds her and she gave her worthless life back. An apple can wait, lol.

OH WOW, I know, wtf how awful was Snake?! Seriously? I have this urge to take my imaginable .45 and go to D'Hara and start shooting @ DR, Snake, Zedd's rotten body, punch Triana in a face cuz I can and leave Shorty the Owner in charge of frikkin D'Hara for good!

I thought of lengths that Cara would need to go to in order to "protect" Dahlia from her "weaknesses" as she said and all the sacrifices she would've had to make to keep her alive. Above all, Dahlia was just so incredibly loved and I hope that shows...
Dahlia was so lucky (if you can call lucky a girl taken to M'S) that she had Cara and she was loved unconditionally every minute of her life! Cara sacrificed her soul for Dahlia. It has to count for something!

like sometimes the richest experiences have come out of the most painful times...those that were the hardest to believe would ever turn into any ( ... )

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lexa_red November 22 2010, 18:10:06 UTC
I have this urge to take my imaginable .45 and go to D'Hara and start shooting @ DR, Snake, Zedd's rotten body, punch Triana in a face cuz I can and leave Shorty the Owner in charge of frikkin D'Hara for good! ROFL!!! Such a shame we can't work that in XD

Fluff comes easy and leaves easy too! I truly love that statement in so many ways so thank you!

I think that it is one of your best scenes!!! I'm telling you as one weirdo to another, lol! The best scene yet! *sigh of relief* Thanks I didn't wanna sound weird but I knew you'd understand lol

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areader221 November 20 2010, 19:08:58 UTC
I adore Denna!! She is the coolest girl ever! I like her defiant character, her irony and the sick love for pain!
"She said she would be picking daisies in the garden, my Lord," That was hilarious to imagine evil!Cara picking some flowers!
Fucking DR! He is such a sadist. He doesn’t just agiel, no, he has to find the most hurtful spot to assault!
"my Mord'Sith and my Confessors don't just vanish into these walls of mine unless I put them inside them." That was just simply scary! Probably he did that to some unfortunate M’S! Bastard!

"My Lord..." Denna purred, "do you require the touch of three Mord'Sith and a Confessor in this moment?" Hahaha! Denna likes to get to his nerves! Isn’t she awesome? "I will tear your skin off flake by flake until you're nothing but a pile of guts and bones..." "And it‘s not even my birthday," she cooed, keeping her head defiantly high. Love Denna and you, of course!
Denna luvs Cara!
Why Cara had chosen a mate as weak as Dahlia sometimes made sense to her. Often times, however, it didn't and never ( ... )

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lexa_red November 21 2010, 06:11:04 UTC
hehehehe oh Denna. I've missed her!! XD

I like her defiant character, her irony and the sick love for pain! That's so perfect, I love that you accept her as she is :P She is my little wicked one. I think if she finds a cause she believes in, she'll definitely fight for it cuz she just has that much "honor" lol. And yeah, like you said, she's attracted to power and her sarcasm is just so vital to her

Haha daisies, I mean, really did DR think it would be that easy?! It's Denna and she's been waiting all her life for something like this. Oh but yeah he is a complete sadist! Like the worst one ever. I also think he's arrogant to think he knows so much about Mord'Sith relationships...he has no idea what they hide from him and that's so necessary cuz he couldn't possibly understand the bulk of it

It‘s not even my birthday what a smartass, his threats suck!! :D But yeah, being entombed inside a wall, can you imagine?! My DR and would definitely do such a thing, no question! But yeah, Denna calls him out. Does he really need Cara, Dahlia ( ... )

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areader221 November 22 2010, 03:21:27 UTC
Hehehe, we’ve missed her both!
I love that you accept her as she is :P She is my little wicked one.
Hahaha! Yep, she is your little wicked one and we both love her with no end!!

Denna is so amused by DR and his threats she is just THAT AWESOME! Amazing that she basically knows what to expect and she still is having fun. These crazy Mord’Siths are completely mad women!!! Nothing you can do about it!
But they totally know what honor and loyalty to the Sisters mean.

Baby Denna doesn’t know love :***( She was always a lonely wolf.
Tell me, Lexa, dear, please, do you have any bunnies later for Denna? I’m kinda worried for her, idk why.

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lexa_red November 22 2010, 18:18:23 UTC
Oh there, there, don't you worry at all...

There's this scene in Xena where Xena saves some asshole killer and after he betrays her, he's says, "I'm a killer. Why'd you come back for me, what did you expect?"

And Xena replies, "From you? Nothing. From me? Nothing less."

Xena is so awesome there and that's how I see Denna...

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areader221 November 21 2010, 00:40:17 UTC
Finding Dahlia. Lexa! That was another heart wrenching scene.
Funny how Cara was gasping and pulling Kahlan away from a cliff, hehe. She still didn’t get over K’s death. Feelings!Cara!

She would’ve done anything not to be left behind in that moment, and she counted herself fortunate that Mistress Cara was extremely versed and knowledgeable about the depths of dependency. Wow, it’s true! Poor pets become nonfunctional by themselves!

The clouds moved mockingly above them, blocking out the north star, the half moon and forcing them closer together. Cool image! Like something scary is going to happen.

She tugged Kahlan behind her loosely, more like a child’s toy, setting the speed faster than she was physically capable of moving. She had to know. Her mind grew wild and dark with ideas. Maybe Dahlia had been captured by whoever slept in that lonely place, or she had gone in an entirely different direction altogether and this would cost her valuable time. She didn’t feel like Dahlia was close. So she ran even harder. As they ( ... )

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lexa_red November 21 2010, 06:52:12 UTC
Awww finding Dahlia. I'm glad you liked this!! It pained me beyond anything to see Cara like that but she loves and needs her Dahlia so of course it had to be like the worst experience of her life, right? She had already brought Dahlia back with the BoL once before but I think this time was different cuz they had parted on such heartbreaking terms with so much left unresolved...at least if Dahlia had died back then, they would've ended on a beautiful year and time. I also think Cara held out hope that not only would she be alive but that she would want Cara just as completely idk

lol you liked Cara's weird eyes...she's just a complicated girl XD

I should read your fic during day not at night time. Then probably I’ll feel more relaxed :) ROFL!!! That just gets me so good, I love it!! I know that if it were a movie, you'd have it in small screen, am I right?! lol

Then I finally fell in love with Kahlan, lol! Where did this whiny girl disappear? Kahlan became an action hero, she loves she Mistress but her head is cool enough to act. ( ... )

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areader221 November 22 2010, 03:55:32 UTC
Oh, dear, I realized now that you wrote your last reply somewhere after 3 am! I think I should reduce my comments or they might become as long as the fic, lol! I promise that next time I’ll cut myself short! You know that I loooove your story I don’t have to repeat it again! I’ll try to be laconic.
. I also think Cara held out hope that not only would she be alive but that she would want Cara just as completely idk So true :\ Cara was paralyzed by so many reasons! Guilt, fear for D, fear of rejection and so much more!
I know that if it were a movie, you'd have it in small screen, am I right?! Hey, youuuuuuu!
But honestly it would’ve been my fave “guilty pleasure” movie which I would watch repeatedly on a VERY small screen in a VERY bright room, lol! Hahaha, you know me!

Lol, I just liked how Kahlan scooped Cara and just dropped her on Dahlia with the instructions!!!

I think Dahlia truly means that much to her and I can never see her really recovering from that OMG! Agree. I think she would just sit there until she’d die cuz she ( ... )

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lexa_red November 22 2010, 18:40:48 UTC
lol yeah I totally forgot about the bright room!!

Yeah, Kahlan sorta saved the day a little bit XD hehe well I'm pretty confident that even I could carry Shorty if I had to :P But yeah, Kahlan and her paws will probably always prefer the drop method lol

Agree. I think she would just sit there until she’d die cuz she doesn’t value much her own life and the one thing she would think about that she failed her Dahlia. EXACTLY! I didn't know what to do either! I swear!!
I needed my Confessor bigtime

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areader221 November 21 2010, 00:40:51 UTC
As she climbed back up the ridge with her legs on fire and her lungs even worse, it occurred to her that she could escape the Mord'Sith. She could take Berry and just ride off with the comfort of knowing how Mistress Cara would never leave Dahlia in such a condition to come thundering after her. What?! You left me here speechless!

She tried to imagine what she would do without her Mistresses. The thought paralyzed her mouth, so much so that she had to stop and gulp down a fresh breath before she could continue. There would be nothing. She would be no one. She loved them, belonged to them. Yep, yep, yep, much better!

Kahlan rushed to them, and inexplicably threw her arms around Cara’s back, and for a few precious seconds, she was able to hug them both at once. Yes, baby, Kahlan wants to belong!

"Mistress," Kahlan dared, "what happened to her?" "It's her lungs. Our Mistress damaged them when she was child. She was not expected to live." "Your Mistress?" The idea of Cara calling anybody Mistress was utterly incomprehensible. Arghh ( ... )

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lexa_red November 21 2010, 07:35:25 UTC
Yes, baby, Kahlan wants to belong! oh you're so right about Kahlan definitely having alot to learn lol...not just about Mord'Sith but about where she belongs...it's going to be an extremely hard lesson, of course cuz I'm gonna teach it XD

I like Dahlia with a short hair. Without her braid she is not that cool smirking tactician anymore but like a real herself, idk. That makes me so fuzzy wuzzy cuz I feel the same...like she's almost starting over idk. I think Cara likes it too so that's always good lol

Also, I liked that little mourning moment for Aven. She did save Dahlia and gave her life for her! awww yeah my poor girl is now under a bare winter tree. Sucks. But she loved her Mistress and gladly sacrificed herself and of course, I think she made a Dahlia a better person somehow we'll see..

The fucking Cara with her single tear! She had fucking made me all teary last night! OMG you are the best!! I'm so surprised and honored that she affected you this way awwww you love her :D

They need to sort out many problems! lol that's one ( ... )

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areader221 November 22 2010, 04:25:25 UTC
Kahlan definitely having alot to learn lol...not just about Mord'Sith but about where she belongs...it's going to be an extremely hard lesson, of course cuz I'm gonna teach it XD IDK, lol but your promise sounds so UNF!!!

Dahlia looks innocent with shorter and loose hair. Shorty the Owner looks like a child when in full M’S attire. IMHO (in Reckoning and Marked she looks in some shots she has a baby face, hehe)

I think Aven made a Dahlia a better person somehow we'll see.. TRUFAX!!!

They need to sort out many problems! lol that's one way of saying it, just omg, prepare Squeee!!!

she found purpose and love so early in her life that I truly feel for her too ;) Maybe it's not too late for her and she'll be able to tap into some of that again somehow... Yeees, it’s not too late for Cara!! *nods intensely*

Lol! Would’ve been strange of you to put a small Dahlia image on a background! She HAS to be the BIGGEST XD!

I’ll think of bunnies, lol! Kahlan is hard for me.

I also like then Cara is violent and owns XD lol oh me too, trust ( ... )

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lexa_red November 22 2010, 18:29:50 UTC
hahaha I love that icon!! Seriousfic would be very jealous of it too :D

Shorty the Owner looks like a child when in full M’S attire. LOL!! wtf I'm dying that is hysterical! You're kinda right. She is so unbelievably cute and she knows it! I just love her solemn little face of superiority the most though

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