Thank you guys for the comments. I really appreciate your concern and I'll write back when I'm feeling a little better. Much love...
me

I feel so shitty today that I feel physically sick. I can't wait to get out of here today. Hope you guys are doing much much better.

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I think one of the worst feelings is not being able to tell someone why you're feeling the way you do at a specific time.  Even worse might be not knowing why you're having them yourself.  I feel aweful - I can't tell anyone why or what it does or doesn't have to do with.  I can't make anyone understand how it is to be me right now or how I'm ( Read more... )

Just got back from the meeting...and a movie...with Schmavis. We went to see "Along Came Polly". Scary! I'm very Polly-ish, says Travis. I was thinking he was a bit Ruben-ish himself...lol. Anyways, it went well. I didn't feel completely myself knowing that he may have a thing for me and I...well, never know what the hell I'm doing. Travis ( Read more... )

Last night I had it out with Alex. I just couldn't take it anymore. I told him how I knew he had been spreading shit around about Joe and I and that I thought this past weekend was totally uncalled for. He didn't own up to the rumor - he really didn't have to anyways - and said that everything he had done was in Travis' best interest. Travis? ( Read more... )

Today was rough. I woke up wide awake at 5:30am - a half hour early - because I couldn't stop my mind from spinning. First thing I thought about was him. More specifically, that his little girl would be about 13 now and wondering if that made him nervous ( Read more... )

My mom has broken down twice in the past two days...possibly more than that. I'm worried about her. She won't go to see someone and there's very little that I can do for her. I can barely keep myself sane ( Read more... )

What the FUCK ( Read more... )

A quick update. I've thought about the Reema letter a bit more clearly and I think it would be best if you left a comment in my journal with exactly what you wanted to write her just as iredescence has. I will copy and paste what you write onto a document and make it pretty and such. I'd really like to send it out by next weekend, so don't forget! Oh! ( Read more... )

*Sigh ( Read more... )