It strikes again when I least like it.

[lexness]

Boredom prevents me from doing anything productive.
Any idea on how I shall fix this?

Edit-ish... more like... this should be a whole different entry?I'm so beyond confused it's not even funny

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[inmy_head]

You shouldn't regret anything.

It sounds corny but everything you've done makes you who you are. There ain't no changing that.

Besides, there are plenty of people who love you despite all that's happened.

[lexness]

The problem is I'm still working on liking who I am, and the stupid things I've done make me someone that I find hard to like. You know what I mean? I'm sure everyone's felt like this before.

Besides... you've missed a lot :/ So many things have changed it's crazy.

[inmy_head]

Oh yeah. It's very hard to come to terms with yourself. I can't say I've done it myself. There are things you're not going to like and if you can't change them, all you can do is except them, you know?

And I've missed you too, though I'll be honest (I've been really honest today....) talking to you is hard.

[lexness]

Yeah. I'm slowly learning that, but I haven't quite gotten it yet. Sally keeps trying to beat that into my head. *shrugs*

I understand that. *points up* I really am sorry. I never meant for anything like that to happen. You always think you have forever, you know? I was a mess though... I still am... and I did/do love you, Cai.

I've been calling a lot more lately because the sound of your voice is soothing for some reason. (since we're being honest, here...) That was the same reason why I would call you in the middle of the night to talk about things- the night is always the hardest for me since I have time to think then, and it still hasn't gotten any easier. But I don't know... there are so many time that I want to call you and just beg you to talk about everything and nothing, or to sing something, just because I miss your voice.

I know I've hurt you and I don't know how to make up for it... I don't even know if I can. I don't know... sorry just doesn't cut it, eh?

[tortureisnogame]

Oh I know. Being a teenager sucks sometimes. It's really hard to figure out who you really are. Then you'll hear one thing, and be like, 'Oh, I like that idea'. Then someone else will be like, 'Oh, that's wrong'. Then you're like 'WTF? Which way do I believe in?'

Hate that.

I don't have so many regrets, they are more like, I feel badly for doing that. Which really isn't much better.

<3 for running.

(Spins in circles) Hey, this is what being a teen feels like. Adults don't understand because they forgot what it was like to be one.

[kisa_hanajima]

:/ srry hun..