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I'm so freaked out right now you wouldn't believe. I've been telling people I'm okay for hours but quite honestly I'm still kinda shaken up. Fucking nightmare day.
Oh my god.
So I was staying at my sisters this weekend and everything was fine last night, was on the net, watched tv, jumped on my sisters bed and raided her wardrobe for clothes I wanted to borrow, fun-fun-fun. Went to bed just before 2am and everything was great.
My mum calls me at 9:30 to tell me to get up and get ready because she was driving up to my sisters and then we were getting the train into town for shopping because it's only one station away and it's easier than finding parking and it's cheaper. So I get up and get showered/dressed and then make my breakfast of a bowl of rice krispies. Then I came online to send Mark a text telling him he sucked for not calling me last night and that I was going shopping... I've never felt so bad thinking the last thing I could have said to him was that he sucked, lame but I just can't help feeling bad about it as melodramatic as it all sounds.
I should explain now for people who don't know that I have diabetes, have done since I was 13, not something I did to myself but genetically inherited from my mother. I have to inject myself with insulin twice a day everyday for the rest of my life unless they find a cure/another way to manage it. Anyway what it means is my blood sugars can go too high if I have too much glucose(sugar) in my system because I don't naturally produce insulin and if this happens I can get sick and throw up and my body will start to have like a glucose overload thing (been in the intensive care ward of a hospital for this before, not good) but also the opposite can happen and my blood sugars can go too low and they are like the source of your energy, this can happen a lot sometimes if I don't eat enough or over-exercise without compensating with food, but your body tends to give you signs before this happens and I can usually tell because I feel weak, shaky and light-headed so then I know to eat before I get worse.
Anyway so my mum comes over and we go to town and everything is perfectly fine for 45 minutes, I bought fabric paint so I can customize some t-shirts. ^_^ Then I was like ohh I gotta buy Leia chocolate and then find a post office without my mum being around, hmmm I'll tell her I'm buying mothers day presents later and she has to shop on her own for a while. So we walk into this shop and the lights start hurting my eyes and I was like mum can we get out and so we did and I start walking outside and I say maybe I need something to eat because this like sudden wave of light-headedness comes over me so we head to Tesco's and start looking at salads and I was like OH I WANNA BUY NME and then I shake. When I say shake I don't mean non-stop I mean a sudden violent shake and I felt like my blinks were lasting too long (lmao) like a sort of second long black-out. I sort of grasped my mums arm and she starts getting worried and I keep doing the shake thing and I was like can we leave, please, now.
So we get outside and I keep shaking and when I go into shock I laugh. Like crazy manic laughter. My mum was all 'okay....okay...okay...okay...okay' freaking out because I keep saying I'm fine and laughing but she's panicking so I go BUY ME SOME FRUIT, LOL! I WANT AN APPLE! LOLOLOL! so we head towards the fruit stall and I'm like leaning on my mum at this stage and then I don't remember anything until I hear my mum telling this guy 'SHE'S DIABETIC' and I was sitting down and then she's like ALEX ALEX ALEX EAT THIS and gives me some glucose tablets. Basically I passed out and like my mum tried to grab me but was like in shock so she barely did and the fruit stall guy was all action hero leaping and holding me up, lol. So anyway I was only out a couple of seconds but like everything around the time was fuzzy.
So I'm sitting there eating and my mums like an ambulance is coming and I go WHAT!?! WHY?!? I'M FINE NOW! and she's like YOU PASSED OUT O.O!! and anyway this lady from the baked potato stall gave me a free potato to eat cuz I needed carbohydrates to back up the glucose. I was like lol free food! But yeah I was still kinda woozy but okay when the ambulance came and my head started hurting a bit so they had to take me to the hospital.
The only good part of my day was the ambulance ride, it was so cool! But 'cause I wasn't dying they didn't put the siren on or go super-fast. :(
Anyway yeah my head starting hurtine so bad and by the time I got to the hospital I'm crying with pain so they give me paracetamol and sit me down to wait. Like 30 minutes later it's hurting worse and so they're like -puts me on trolley bed- and it still hurts like crazy so they're like oooooookay -ibruprofen- and then an hour later I am almost screaming in pain it was like the left side of my head/eye/ear was just... I dunno I can't describe the pain but believe me I will NEVER complain about a normal headache again, believe me. They give me this super strong migrane stuff and it took like an hour and a half to even BEGIN kicking in. :/
But anyway it took 6 hours to even see a doctor so we were there ages and they had to keep feeding me so I didn't pass out again and they tried to give me this DISGUSTING mashed potato and I was like I'd rather be on a drip than eat that shit and the nurse was like -looks at it- oh... I don't blame you. So my mum went and found me none-gross food and eventually I see the doctor and I'm totally fine by then so they let me out!
Now I'm just like ..fuck, I feel so scared and I'm not even sure of what, just a hideously bad day.
Oh my god.
So I was staying at my sisters this weekend and everything was fine last night, was on the net, watched tv, jumped on my sisters bed and raided her wardrobe for clothes I wanted to borrow, fun-fun-fun. Went to bed just before 2am and everything was great.
My mum calls me at 9:30 to tell me to get up and get ready because she was driving up to my sisters and then we were getting the train into town for shopping because it's only one station away and it's easier than finding parking and it's cheaper. So I get up and get showered/dressed and then make my breakfast of a bowl of rice krispies. Then I came online to send Mark a text telling him he sucked for not calling me last night and that I was going shopping... I've never felt so bad thinking the last thing I could have said to him was that he sucked, lame but I just can't help feeling bad about it as melodramatic as it all sounds.
I should explain now for people who don't know that I have diabetes, have done since I was 13, not something I did to myself but genetically inherited from my mother. I have to inject myself with insulin twice a day everyday for the rest of my life unless they find a cure/another way to manage it. Anyway what it means is my blood sugars can go too high if I have too much glucose(sugar) in my system because I don't naturally produce insulin and if this happens I can get sick and throw up and my body will start to have like a glucose overload thing (been in the intensive care ward of a hospital for this before, not good) but also the opposite can happen and my blood sugars can go too low and they are like the source of your energy, this can happen a lot sometimes if I don't eat enough or over-exercise without compensating with food, but your body tends to give you signs before this happens and I can usually tell because I feel weak, shaky and light-headed so then I know to eat before I get worse.
Anyway so my mum comes over and we go to town and everything is perfectly fine for 45 minutes, I bought fabric paint so I can customize some t-shirts. ^_^ Then I was like ohh I gotta buy Leia chocolate and then find a post office without my mum being around, hmmm I'll tell her I'm buying mothers day presents later and she has to shop on her own for a while. So we walk into this shop and the lights start hurting my eyes and I was like mum can we get out and so we did and I start walking outside and I say maybe I need something to eat because this like sudden wave of light-headedness comes over me so we head to Tesco's and start looking at salads and I was like OH I WANNA BUY NME and then I shake. When I say shake I don't mean non-stop I mean a sudden violent shake and I felt like my blinks were lasting too long (lmao) like a sort of second long black-out. I sort of grasped my mums arm and she starts getting worried and I keep doing the shake thing and I was like can we leave, please, now.
So we get outside and I keep shaking and when I go into shock I laugh. Like crazy manic laughter. My mum was all 'okay....okay...okay...okay...okay' freaking out because I keep saying I'm fine and laughing but she's panicking so I go BUY ME SOME FRUIT, LOL! I WANT AN APPLE! LOLOLOL! so we head towards the fruit stall and I'm like leaning on my mum at this stage and then I don't remember anything until I hear my mum telling this guy 'SHE'S DIABETIC' and I was sitting down and then she's like ALEX ALEX ALEX EAT THIS and gives me some glucose tablets. Basically I passed out and like my mum tried to grab me but was like in shock so she barely did and the fruit stall guy was all action hero leaping and holding me up, lol. So anyway I was only out a couple of seconds but like everything around the time was fuzzy.
So I'm sitting there eating and my mums like an ambulance is coming and I go WHAT!?! WHY?!? I'M FINE NOW! and she's like YOU PASSED OUT O.O!! and anyway this lady from the baked potato stall gave me a free potato to eat cuz I needed carbohydrates to back up the glucose. I was like lol free food! But yeah I was still kinda woozy but okay when the ambulance came and my head started hurting a bit so they had to take me to the hospital.
The only good part of my day was the ambulance ride, it was so cool! But 'cause I wasn't dying they didn't put the siren on or go super-fast. :(
Anyway yeah my head starting hurtine so bad and by the time I got to the hospital I'm crying with pain so they give me paracetamol and sit me down to wait. Like 30 minutes later it's hurting worse and so they're like -puts me on trolley bed- and it still hurts like crazy so they're like oooooookay -ibruprofen- and then an hour later I am almost screaming in pain it was like the left side of my head/eye/ear was just... I dunno I can't describe the pain but believe me I will NEVER complain about a normal headache again, believe me. They give me this super strong migrane stuff and it took like an hour and a half to even BEGIN kicking in. :/
But anyway it took 6 hours to even see a doctor so we were there ages and they had to keep feeding me so I didn't pass out again and they tried to give me this DISGUSTING mashed potato and I was like I'd rather be on a drip than eat that shit and the nurse was like -looks at it- oh... I don't blame you. So my mum went and found me none-gross food and eventually I see the doctor and I'm totally fine by then so they let me out!
Now I'm just like ..fuck, I feel so scared and I'm not even sure of what, just a hideously bad day.