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Dec 09, 2005 23:01

I’ve been quiet as the moon lately, and with good reason. This week-the past two weeks, actually-have had an unpleasant feeling and it’s been seeping into my daily life. I’ve felt more unstable and unfocused than is normal, but I’m making a conscious effort to gain a sentiment of balance ( Read more... )

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theunquietnight December 10 2005, 23:30:19 UTC

I know what you mean. I feel like that off an on any given month. Esepcially when the path I'm on has become anything but smooth.

lhiana December 11 2005, 02:23:22 UTC

the whole thing with my mom really shook me up. She and I have not always been close. It's taken some learning on both our parts to understand each other. But yes. My recent interest in astrology is showing some interesting patterns with the times that I feel "off"... I have been thinking a lot lately about how arrogant it is of us to always put ourselves "outside" the rest of the universe. But I'll post more on that later.

I'm feeling better today. I think, honestly, that coffee fogs up my brain. I didn't drink it this morning and I'm feeling much better.

theunquietnight December 11 2005, 08:06:59 UTC

i'm an alcoholic, but you probably knew that. it fogs up my brain too love. just like everything else.

as far as the universe in concerned. I think one of two things. We feel alone, or we feel completely happy.

The rest of our lives fall somewhere in between.

Personally, I had my stretch alone in Vegas. My father ended up saving me.

My moment feeling complete. Maybe that will happen when I have a family, I trust, love and hold dear.

Right now, I'm as empty as a tin can.

Kicked around, and fucked up.
Don't worry about the coffee sweetie. I think you have most things licked. In our lives, we have greater demons to fight.

life can be like that. lhiana December 11 2005, 22:56:35 UTC

My father was an alcoholic for many, many years. It's a portion of my life that I have mostly either forgotten or blocked out... he finally went to AA while I was in middle school and has been sober ever since. It was rough for him at first, but he is taking care of himself now. He has to. Last year, he had major heart trouble. The doctors pretty much told him that he had to change his lifestyle (eating and exercise habits) or he was going to die. He's gone from a 42 to 32 pants size and exercises regularly now. So does my mom. I'm glad to finally see them healthy ( ... )

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