old and new

[lhiana]

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13,000 feet cruising between Arizona and New Mexico, mountains below cleaved open like a ribcage, all sounds lost in the rushing roar of her engines and I remember how traveling ruined my Care Bear perception of clouds. As a kid, the illusion dissolved into vaporous patches of light and refraction. The clouds became a whole new world,

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a word of warning.

[muse]

Be careful with Anais. As much as I love her, much of her words were proven by historians to be lies. So read her "confessions" and know that they are somewhat fictional. It doesn't make her words less, however, if you're seeking her truth, her lips are not the lips to shed those truths.

She is a liar. Most good writers are in some ways, but she is.

What bothers me about her is that she claimed she was shedding her truth to the world, when really she fabricated whole chunks of her history, no different than the rest of us, I suppose.

No different.

heard.

[lhiana]

I believe you; it's very much her two-sidedness that intrigues me so much. She seems to be so open to the world in her diaries, and in her letters to Henry, yet at the same time --- I'm finding inconsistencies about her feelings for him as I read the two side-by-side. She lies and confesses all at the same time, and too much at once is bewildering. I wonder what she must have been like in person.

But you, miss muse... how are you? I thought of you yesterday while I was out for a run in the desert - I came upon the brittle bones of a rabbit, bleached perfectly white and delicate. I know you collect them, but the small deposit looked so perfect where it was, I couldn't disturb it. But I thought of you, and fondly. I miss Arizona. I so wanted to come to Slab City, but my work deadline fell at the same time.

[catwingz]

Lovely to read your words again.

I remember always thinking that when it was cloudy, the whole sky was cloudy. Recently, while flying in blue air with the clouds below me, I realized that if the clouds only got out of the way, we'd always have blue skies.

[lhiana]

Thank you, dearie.

Are you feeling better?

[catwingz]

I am indeed, thank you for asking.

My stomach has decided to be a part of my body again (wonderful black raspberry pie for breakfast!), so I'm feeling all better except for my foot. I go see the chiro on Thurs, so hopefully we'll be able to see how it's doing.

[lhiana]

Foot, foot... I can't seem to recall what happened to you. Did you post about it?

I think I fractured my foot back in March. Who knew that salsa dancing could be so dangerous? But two weeks in a row, I got stepped on by women wearing stilettos in that delicate spot between the tendons near the little toe. The third week, a man wearing cowboy boots planted his heel on the same spot. My whole foot turned black and blue, then yellow and green and purple. For as ugly as it was, it was quite colorful.