Day 06 → Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 06 → Whatever tickles your fancy
Uhm. Ok?
That just screams sexual to me, so this is what we're going with.
A large part of who I consider myself to be revolves around my sexual nature. I am super-sexual, always thinking about it, always enabling myself. This has always been a part of me, not just this particular kink of mine, but the fact that I am driven by sex. I started masturbating when I was eleven, yet before I found that if I rubbed a certain way it felt good, I had been tying myself to my bed during playing pretend, as well as pretending to be caught and strapped into a spanking machine. (We're talking like, 5-6 years old at most, maybe younger.)
It is a constant in my life. I remember the thrill of typing "Spanking" into the search line of altavista.com when I was twelve and finding Jimka's Archive of M/m spanking stories. I was SO amazed by this find that I told my best friend (of the time) about it. I don't remember her reaction but I was semi-disappointed she wasn't as enthused as I had been. I still frequent the site, as well as post my stories on it now. (It no longer belongs to him, and they actually do not use his name anymore, but for purposes of clarity, I say it here. The current rendition can be found at www.malespank.net )
Spanking has been a major part of that sex drive and I cannot begin to explain why. It just gets me there. In fact, more often than not, a spanking is more satisfying to me than actual penetrative sex. I could be happy to read and look at spanking drawings for the things I'm obsessed with everyday. The problem is not as many people are into it as I could hope. Purely spanking fic is few and far between, and when I do find it, often it is so poorly executed that I cannot bear to read it. This is what drew me into writing. Sure, malespank.net has lots of spanking fiction, but I specifically wanted to read spanking fiction between Merry and Pippin in LOTR, of which there was surprisingly little. So, I wrote my own.
Which brings me to now. I write because I want to see more of the thing that I love. Unfortunately my creativity comes and goes in spurts when I have to deal with both characters and both of their motivations. It's exhausting for me. Thus, why I roleplay, which has it's own set of problems: namely a partner who shares not only my infatuation for spanking (specifically being the spanker, as I am a spankee), but someone involved in my fandoms as well. I've tried the generic spanking thing and that's ok, and I've tried trying to get into something new to suit the other person's fandom, but that ends poorly if I'm not jazzed by it, or if I'm REALLY into something else. So I sit and stew in my obsession, trying to get up the creativity to roleplay with myself to the point where cohesion happens, causing the birth of a fic.
And that, as they say, is that.
See what I said about stupid!tired? Introspection out the wahzoo. I apologize and will try to get out of my own head a little more tomorrow.
30 Days Meme home
P.S.- If anyone out there is up for some Watson/Holmes spanking RP, I'm just about dying for it right now. Especially if you're willing to be a Toppy Watson to my stroppy Holmes... though in all honestly I do see them switching too. /selfpimp off
Uhm. Ok?
That just screams sexual to me, so this is what we're going with.
A large part of who I consider myself to be revolves around my sexual nature. I am super-sexual, always thinking about it, always enabling myself. This has always been a part of me, not just this particular kink of mine, but the fact that I am driven by sex. I started masturbating when I was eleven, yet before I found that if I rubbed a certain way it felt good, I had been tying myself to my bed during playing pretend, as well as pretending to be caught and strapped into a spanking machine. (We're talking like, 5-6 years old at most, maybe younger.)
It is a constant in my life. I remember the thrill of typing "Spanking" into the search line of altavista.com when I was twelve and finding Jimka's Archive of M/m spanking stories. I was SO amazed by this find that I told my best friend (of the time) about it. I don't remember her reaction but I was semi-disappointed she wasn't as enthused as I had been. I still frequent the site, as well as post my stories on it now. (It no longer belongs to him, and they actually do not use his name anymore, but for purposes of clarity, I say it here. The current rendition can be found at www.malespank.net )
Spanking has been a major part of that sex drive and I cannot begin to explain why. It just gets me there. In fact, more often than not, a spanking is more satisfying to me than actual penetrative sex. I could be happy to read and look at spanking drawings for the things I'm obsessed with everyday. The problem is not as many people are into it as I could hope. Purely spanking fic is few and far between, and when I do find it, often it is so poorly executed that I cannot bear to read it. This is what drew me into writing. Sure, malespank.net has lots of spanking fiction, but I specifically wanted to read spanking fiction between Merry and Pippin in LOTR, of which there was surprisingly little. So, I wrote my own.
Which brings me to now. I write because I want to see more of the thing that I love. Unfortunately my creativity comes and goes in spurts when I have to deal with both characters and both of their motivations. It's exhausting for me. Thus, why I roleplay, which has it's own set of problems: namely a partner who shares not only my infatuation for spanking (specifically being the spanker, as I am a spankee), but someone involved in my fandoms as well. I've tried the generic spanking thing and that's ok, and I've tried trying to get into something new to suit the other person's fandom, but that ends poorly if I'm not jazzed by it, or if I'm REALLY into something else. So I sit and stew in my obsession, trying to get up the creativity to roleplay with myself to the point where cohesion happens, causing the birth of a fic.
And that, as they say, is that.
See what I said about stupid!tired? Introspection out the wahzoo. I apologize and will try to get out of my own head a little more tomorrow.
30 Days Meme home
P.S.- If anyone out there is up for some Watson/Holmes spanking RP, I'm just about dying for it right now. Especially if you're willing to be a Toppy Watson to my stroppy Holmes... though in all honestly I do see them switching too. /selfpimp off