I dont think I have been this happy in a really long time. I went out and got jeans and stuff from target with my mommy even though I'm at my dads house. I dropped a size in jeans and that alone makes me super happy. I just read zoe's livejournal and she said the song "I'm a little seal gurl" reminded her of me and that made me laugh. val ( Read more... )

silly 30 year olds sending me messages on myspace..this made me laugh..really hard ( Read more... )

today sucked.

hmmm i never knew a lindsay lohan song could be so deppresing. well last night was much needed. I got to spend a lovely night with Hill and zoe whom i love more then i could ever say in words. dancing to techno, listening to cult 45, and just talking. I agree with zoe..all of r frends should definitaly just live togrether. U r so much less ( Read more... )

i cant believe it is only 7 right now. It feels so much later. well anyways today i went ot he amll with elle zoe jodi kayla and garret. I had fun I guess but its just something about being ina big group at the mall that I absolutely hate. i bout a new nose ring and got starbucks which is usulyy yummy but fro some reason it tasted like shit ( Read more... )

i feel lonely right now. r conversations seem to get shorter and shorter. I just want them to kiss me. just to feel safe and loved and wanted. but life does go on..

wow yesterday was crazy in good and bad ways...the good: i went to caroline's party with zoe and we danced r assess off and had mucho funnn.I talked to matt in depth which I haven't done ina while and im glad we r frends again. The BAd-we left the party to meet jodi and garret and me and zoe walked at night, alone, with a map from mapquest...we ( Read more... )

thers only one word to describe my day.blah.I feell like im really fucked up like messed up. like im not normal. i always think about stuff i shouldn't and that are things thsat other people proabbly dont thik about. I really have been scaring myself lately. I feel like i have to keep secrets from everyone now a days. And its hard for me ( Read more... )

soooooo i think my dreams have kinda just been crushed a little by fucking dad.we wer at dinner and he randomly was like i dont want u to go to NYC and all this stuff. I'm not in a very good mood right now and I wish people were online. I'm at my dads for two days in a row this week so I won't be riding the bus which sucks. Tommorow I have to go ( Read more... )

this is so damn emo...but i really am confused. i don't want to think about the things that I AM thinking about. There is only one person who I told this to today. I'm to scared to tell anyone else because of what they migth think of me. I don't want my relationships with anyone to change so I'm really scared to tell anyone. Even zoe and thats ( Read more... )