what do i deserve
This just hits a little too close to home...
This time I think it could be perfect
But you're pushing away
I came here today with a purpose
Should I try or just let it go?
'cause these things I'd like to ask you
Are things I can't explain
Or should I keep your plans outside the porch last Saturday?
Should I have succumbed to your courtesy?
I could see you were trying to get my attention
But I pushed it away
This time I think it could be perfect
But you're pushing away
This time I think it could be perfect
But you're pushing away
But tonight it seemed suddenly perfect
Still no promises made
The balance of power has shifted
Were you trying to let me in?
Or was I trying so hard
That all of my confidence was lost tonight?
Confused and regretful, I cracked
Swallowed it back, and left with no spine intact
Should I have succumbed to your courtesy?
I could see you were trying to get my attention
But I pushed it away
This time I think it could be perfect
But you're pushing away
This time I think it could be perfect
But you're pushing away
This time I think it could be perfect
But you're pushing away
This time I think it could be
Maybe we were meant
To see what's right
She held a sort of it
Just a taste of life
To see what's right
To make sense out of it
What a shame that we're slipping away now (away now)
Going away now
To see what's out there
'cause you're all that's here for me
This time I think it could be perfect
But you're pushing away
This time I think it could be perfect
You're all that's here for me
This time I think it could be perfect
But you're pushing away
This time I think it could be perfect
You're all that's here for me
So yeah I've definately been there...but going through that has only made what I have now so much better...so so so much better. I was going through my journal (girlnal as some would say) last night, re-reading all those entries. Now I can't even fathom that I was ever in that much pain, which is why I'm so glad I wrote it all down. Now I see how much I've grown just in this past year, and how good I was through it all, how many impulses I didn't act on when I really wanted to. I was a good girl, so good for me. I also came accross this "story" I wrote one night entitled "Dragon and Pheonix." I think this is something I'm going to try and improve/expand upon. It's really a good start especially for being one of my random stream of consciousness pieces. I find those are some of the best.
Love always,
Janelle
This time I think it could be perfect
But you're pushing away
I came here today with a purpose
Should I try or just let it go?
'cause these things I'd like to ask you
Are things I can't explain
Or should I keep your plans outside the porch last Saturday?
Should I have succumbed to your courtesy?
I could see you were trying to get my attention
But I pushed it away
This time I think it could be perfect
But you're pushing away
This time I think it could be perfect
But you're pushing away
But tonight it seemed suddenly perfect
Still no promises made
The balance of power has shifted
Were you trying to let me in?
Or was I trying so hard
That all of my confidence was lost tonight?
Confused and regretful, I cracked
Swallowed it back, and left with no spine intact
Should I have succumbed to your courtesy?
I could see you were trying to get my attention
But I pushed it away
This time I think it could be perfect
But you're pushing away
This time I think it could be perfect
But you're pushing away
This time I think it could be perfect
But you're pushing away
This time I think it could be
Maybe we were meant
To see what's right
She held a sort of it
Just a taste of life
To see what's right
To make sense out of it
What a shame that we're slipping away now (away now)
Going away now
To see what's out there
'cause you're all that's here for me
This time I think it could be perfect
But you're pushing away
This time I think it could be perfect
You're all that's here for me
This time I think it could be perfect
But you're pushing away
This time I think it could be perfect
You're all that's here for me
So yeah I've definately been there...but going through that has only made what I have now so much better...so so so much better. I was going through my journal (girlnal as some would say) last night, re-reading all those entries. Now I can't even fathom that I was ever in that much pain, which is why I'm so glad I wrote it all down. Now I see how much I've grown just in this past year, and how good I was through it all, how many impulses I didn't act on when I really wanted to. I was a good girl, so good for me. I also came accross this "story" I wrote one night entitled "Dragon and Pheonix." I think this is something I'm going to try and improve/expand upon. It's really a good start especially for being one of my random stream of consciousness pieces. I find those are some of the best.
Love always,
Janelle