what has happened to me? i seriously have no idea it's like i'm a different person. a couple of months ago i could go for weeks and weeks and not feel weak or anything, i would be quite happy sitting starving and never thought of food and now it's so shit. i can not eat for like 5 days then eat over the weekend obviously fucking up all my hard work ( Read more... )

i need to fall asleep and wake up with a fresh, new day ( Read more... )

today:1 small portion of purple berry special k with a little bit of skimmed milk ( Read more... )

i'm feeling a lot more positive this week ( Read more... )

i just want to feel happiness ( Read more... )

i have been putting this entry off all day as i have so much to get off my chest but it physically hurts to think about it, however i guess i need to deal with these feelings- it'll be good for my progress ( Read more... )

i'm feeling positive about this fast ( Read more... )

i am fucked up to the point of no recognition.

I DISGUST MYSELF ( Read more... )

i am such a fat fucking failure.