A Burden Lifted
This weekend I came to a decision about my previous entry.
I decided that I do not have time right now with everything I want to do this for ROTC. This, and some wise words from friends, led me to believe my mind thinking one thing, while my heart was feeling something entirely different.
My mind kept telling me that serving in the military was the right thing to do. I mean I support Bush in his foreign policy. I love the United States of America and would do anything for her. After careful thinking, I can now readily say I would sacrifice my own life if I knew it would lead to America’s safety and the spread of freedom over the world. I would sacrifice my very existence if it leads to the freedom of the Iraqi people. Because I feel this way, is not the military the best option for me?
My heart did not feel right about it. When I was there, I just received a sinking feeling. It just did not feel right, as if God was telling me this was not the path for me. After making the decision, I felt a great burden lifted from my shoulders. I felt like I could breathe again. I felt like me again. I feel free this week. I am high on life and the Spirit again. God Rocks!
I was touched again this weekend. It has been awhile since I have felt Him. I am going out on a limb here with what people might think, however I think it’s important to share.
Last Friday I was talking to one of my best friends about politics. We were talking about just about every social issue under the sun. We eventually reached Church and State. He brought up some excellent points. I could not refute his claims on just logic and the makings of our government. At the end he asked would I, if I had the chance, abolish religion from every aspect of government.
I would not be able to do it. Is it the “right” thing to do to ensure no ones’ rights are taken away? Probably. I will be the first to admit that I am extremely bias. I love God and I know He loves me too. I cannot imagine going one day without Him in my life. I could never jeopardize anyone else from having the same relationship with Him that I do. What if “In God We Trust” or “Under God” or the Ten Commandments reaches out and touches just one person to help them know God like I do? For me, as a Christian, there is too much at stake for me to cast a vote for the complete separation of Church and State.
Anyway, after praying and coming up with this answer, God definitely touched me. Tears started running down my cheeks and I felt needles (like the kind you get when your feet fall asleep) in the back of my neck. Ever since, I feel closer to Him than ever before.
College life has been incredible this week. I actually enjoy going to class and I am just beginning to make some quality friends. This weekend I am going on the Campus Crusade Retreat! Words cannot describe how excited I am! It is going to be a blast!
Do not forget, Bush v. Kerry this Thursday at nine. Topic is foreign policy. Maybe we will actually learn what Kerry thinks! (Cheap shot I know, but true.)
Have a great week everyone! I miss you all! Live life to the fullest and maximize greatness! J
“Stop trying to drive from the passenger seat. You do not even know where you are going! Let God drive for once. He knows the way Home.” -Matthew Graham
I decided that I do not have time right now with everything I want to do this for ROTC. This, and some wise words from friends, led me to believe my mind thinking one thing, while my heart was feeling something entirely different.
My mind kept telling me that serving in the military was the right thing to do. I mean I support Bush in his foreign policy. I love the United States of America and would do anything for her. After careful thinking, I can now readily say I would sacrifice my own life if I knew it would lead to America’s safety and the spread of freedom over the world. I would sacrifice my very existence if it leads to the freedom of the Iraqi people. Because I feel this way, is not the military the best option for me?
My heart did not feel right about it. When I was there, I just received a sinking feeling. It just did not feel right, as if God was telling me this was not the path for me. After making the decision, I felt a great burden lifted from my shoulders. I felt like I could breathe again. I felt like me again. I feel free this week. I am high on life and the Spirit again. God Rocks!
I was touched again this weekend. It has been awhile since I have felt Him. I am going out on a limb here with what people might think, however I think it’s important to share.
Last Friday I was talking to one of my best friends about politics. We were talking about just about every social issue under the sun. We eventually reached Church and State. He brought up some excellent points. I could not refute his claims on just logic and the makings of our government. At the end he asked would I, if I had the chance, abolish religion from every aspect of government.
I would not be able to do it. Is it the “right” thing to do to ensure no ones’ rights are taken away? Probably. I will be the first to admit that I am extremely bias. I love God and I know He loves me too. I cannot imagine going one day without Him in my life. I could never jeopardize anyone else from having the same relationship with Him that I do. What if “In God We Trust” or “Under God” or the Ten Commandments reaches out and touches just one person to help them know God like I do? For me, as a Christian, there is too much at stake for me to cast a vote for the complete separation of Church and State.
Anyway, after praying and coming up with this answer, God definitely touched me. Tears started running down my cheeks and I felt needles (like the kind you get when your feet fall asleep) in the back of my neck. Ever since, I feel closer to Him than ever before.
College life has been incredible this week. I actually enjoy going to class and I am just beginning to make some quality friends. This weekend I am going on the Campus Crusade Retreat! Words cannot describe how excited I am! It is going to be a blast!
Do not forget, Bush v. Kerry this Thursday at nine. Topic is foreign policy. Maybe we will actually learn what Kerry thinks! (Cheap shot I know, but true.)
Have a great week everyone! I miss you all! Live life to the fullest and maximize greatness! J
“Stop trying to drive from the passenger seat. You do not even know where you are going! Let God drive for once. He knows the way Home.” -Matthew Graham