It is not the WHAT, but the WHY.
I feel so blessed right now. Seriously, today was amazing.
The Future
I have been praying the last few months about the decisions that are going to be brought before me in the not-so-distant-future. Where am I going and where does God want me to go? I have felt extremely lost during the last few months. If you know me at all, than you know I am a “planner.” I have this obsession with knowing where I am going, how I am going to get there, the steps to get there, etc. This is of course a good thing and a bad thing, like so many traits in life. You see, God does not allow us to see where we are going all the time or where He wants to take us for a reason. At these points it is really revealed how much we trust God, and how much deeper that trust needs to be. This is definitely where I am spiritually. Right now it is all about deepening my trust in Him.
Today however, God has blessed me with a path and a destination. It is important to note that I realize these plans are in no way set in stone. Only He knows what the future will hold, and I am definitely all about changing directions. I have always had a passion for opening my own business and this is definitely something I want to pursue, but I want to open something that is completely glorifying to God. What is that going to look like? I have no idea and honestly I do not need to know at this point. If I did, I would. That is what the whole putting complete trust in Him is all about. This has indeed been the definite end result for awhile now, but the more immediate pressing question is what does this mean in terms of majors, activities, etc. What does God want me to do to adequately prepare me for His service? That is the question that has been flowing through me for awhile now, and today it has seemed to have been answered.
I have been seeking God’s guidance in academic aspects of college lately. This probably has a lot to do with scheduling and the rearranging of my four-year plan, wondering and second guessing my decisions. Becoming a staff accountant has definitely thrown me for a loop. This is definitely not a position I ever saw myself in. I thought I would find my niche among the operations side of the equation, as either assistant marketing, or an assistant general manager. I LOVE accounting though because it determines the operations. It reminds me of a quote from the movie Bruce Almighty:
God: No matter how filthy something gets, you can always clean it right up. Bruce: There were so many. I just gave them all what they want. God: Yeah. Since when does anyone have a clue as to what they want?
It is completely true too. This led me with the idea to switch from Finance to Accounting, but if I did so, I would not be able to minor in Entrepreneurship in four years. God is so huge though! By being accounting it opens up another possibility and that is getting my MBA in five years with a concentration in Entrepreneurship. I will be able to become a CPA, which right now I view as kind of useless. However, I will be able to gain mass amounts of business expertise under a similar scholarship program for the fifth year! Like I said before, God is so huge. Praise Him! A big shout-out goes out to Diane Nuffer for just being there to talk things out. I don’t even know if she’ll read this, but just in case…thanks Diane!
Digging Deeper…
This kind of goes along with the last thought and is in fact the reason for the title. Lately I have realized I am off-center with God. This definitely came out in a recent conversation with Michael Brink. I knew I was off-center, I just did not know why. While my destination and my steps to reach it are completely God-Centered, my reasoning for carrying them out is often extremely self-centered. For example, I should be going to classes to learn things that will help me out later in life. Instead, it is so often grade-centered rather than being learning centered. I selfishly want to get A’s as a matter of self-pride, rather than as a means give God glory. The same could go for so many other things such as being a Staff Accountant and secretary of Republican Club.
Often in life it is not what we do, but our motives and desires behind it. The why is vastly more important than the what. God, I pray you continue to point this out to me, and help me to grow to a point where my only why in life is You.
The Future
I have been praying the last few months about the decisions that are going to be brought before me in the not-so-distant-future. Where am I going and where does God want me to go? I have felt extremely lost during the last few months. If you know me at all, than you know I am a “planner.” I have this obsession with knowing where I am going, how I am going to get there, the steps to get there, etc. This is of course a good thing and a bad thing, like so many traits in life. You see, God does not allow us to see where we are going all the time or where He wants to take us for a reason. At these points it is really revealed how much we trust God, and how much deeper that trust needs to be. This is definitely where I am spiritually. Right now it is all about deepening my trust in Him.
Today however, God has blessed me with a path and a destination. It is important to note that I realize these plans are in no way set in stone. Only He knows what the future will hold, and I am definitely all about changing directions. I have always had a passion for opening my own business and this is definitely something I want to pursue, but I want to open something that is completely glorifying to God. What is that going to look like? I have no idea and honestly I do not need to know at this point. If I did, I would. That is what the whole putting complete trust in Him is all about. This has indeed been the definite end result for awhile now, but the more immediate pressing question is what does this mean in terms of majors, activities, etc. What does God want me to do to adequately prepare me for His service? That is the question that has been flowing through me for awhile now, and today it has seemed to have been answered.
I have been seeking God’s guidance in academic aspects of college lately. This probably has a lot to do with scheduling and the rearranging of my four-year plan, wondering and second guessing my decisions. Becoming a staff accountant has definitely thrown me for a loop. This is definitely not a position I ever saw myself in. I thought I would find my niche among the operations side of the equation, as either assistant marketing, or an assistant general manager. I LOVE accounting though because it determines the operations. It reminds me of a quote from the movie Bruce Almighty:
God: No matter how filthy something gets, you can always clean it right up. Bruce: There were so many. I just gave them all what they want. God: Yeah. Since when does anyone have a clue as to what they want?
It is completely true too. This led me with the idea to switch from Finance to Accounting, but if I did so, I would not be able to minor in Entrepreneurship in four years. God is so huge though! By being accounting it opens up another possibility and that is getting my MBA in five years with a concentration in Entrepreneurship. I will be able to become a CPA, which right now I view as kind of useless. However, I will be able to gain mass amounts of business expertise under a similar scholarship program for the fifth year! Like I said before, God is so huge. Praise Him! A big shout-out goes out to Diane Nuffer for just being there to talk things out. I don’t even know if she’ll read this, but just in case…thanks Diane!
Digging Deeper…
This kind of goes along with the last thought and is in fact the reason for the title. Lately I have realized I am off-center with God. This definitely came out in a recent conversation with Michael Brink. I knew I was off-center, I just did not know why. While my destination and my steps to reach it are completely God-Centered, my reasoning for carrying them out is often extremely self-centered. For example, I should be going to classes to learn things that will help me out later in life. Instead, it is so often grade-centered rather than being learning centered. I selfishly want to get A’s as a matter of self-pride, rather than as a means give God glory. The same could go for so many other things such as being a Staff Accountant and secretary of Republican Club.
Often in life it is not what we do, but our motives and desires behind it. The why is vastly more important than the what. God, I pray you continue to point this out to me, and help me to grow to a point where my only why in life is You.