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[libluna]

OK 2 post in one day...what else do i think of when i have free time, god my mom looked at me 2 days ago and said that i seem tense and nervous and she didnt know why, why, i coudlnt tell her....well i dont know...i have posted before that i was sexually abused as a kid by my dad (from 7 to 21) yah i am 21 now. with that abuse he also never allowed

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[anaknowsbest]

You need to decide which is more important: MONEY? or putting that fucking shitface father of yours in prison? You worry me, dear. I can't read your postings without feeling the need to throw up.

[libluna]

PRison...well I know I would never put him in prison, cops treat you like worse shit than anybody else, its like they are re-abusing you.... but I can never see him again, which is what I have decided to do once he leaves the country in 9 days!!! Forget the past and move on, with some therapy!!! By the way money isnt the motivator, its guilt...u can get guilted into doing stuff that you would never think you would do...bigger than guilt is also fear...For many years I believed that my dad would rather kill me than see me leave, to be honest I still believe that...I have no doubt in my mind that if my dad thought i would leave his house that he would kill me, Money is insignificant, I talk about it bc its easy to talk about, its much harder to say that I think someone will kill me...I sleep with a locked door, and when I was a teenager I would actually not sleep at night or lock myself in the closet, so crap people dont say sometimes explains alot!!