Library Challenge 08-02 Innocence.
I don't think I've been innocent since I was ten. That's when I started drinking and started acting out. I never did drugs, never saw the point in them, they hurt you worse then a bottle could. I pulled away from everyone and everything I loved, except J. He was the only one that I could be with and still act like this, he got me. Even if it was stupidity on my part.
The first swig from that bottle of Jack Daniels was the end of my innocence, it because a whirlwind of parties, hangovers and punches to random people that started pissing me off. I became a entirely different person to everyone. I was selfish and I lost my sister because of that. We lost the closeness we once had with each other.
After J overdosed, I stopped, I went cold turkey on my own and made myself as well as I could be. It wasn't easy, it was damn well hard and I hated myself day after day for it. I blamed myself for J's overdose sometimes, because as much as I hated drugs, I never made any attempt to stop him from doing it. Probably because I was too drunk to really do anything.
Now that I'm not alive anymore, I really don't understand why I did it. I lost everything and everyone around me. I screwed up in school, screwed up the only thing that I had going for me and I lost my sister. I lost my whole family.
If it wasn't for me and my stupid mistakes, we would have never been on that camping trip. It was a family outing that was supposed to get everyone to come together again. It worked, it worked so well that we were actually a family again.
Who am I kidding. Innocence is over rated anyway right? Least that's what everyone said. SOme of us just loose our innocence without really meaning to, or wanting to.
Annabelinda, Original Character, 348 words
This post is OPEN for RP and Comments.
The first swig from that bottle of Jack Daniels was the end of my innocence, it because a whirlwind of parties, hangovers and punches to random people that started pissing me off. I became a entirely different person to everyone. I was selfish and I lost my sister because of that. We lost the closeness we once had with each other.
After J overdosed, I stopped, I went cold turkey on my own and made myself as well as I could be. It wasn't easy, it was damn well hard and I hated myself day after day for it. I blamed myself for J's overdose sometimes, because as much as I hated drugs, I never made any attempt to stop him from doing it. Probably because I was too drunk to really do anything.
Now that I'm not alive anymore, I really don't understand why I did it. I lost everything and everyone around me. I screwed up in school, screwed up the only thing that I had going for me and I lost my sister. I lost my whole family.
If it wasn't for me and my stupid mistakes, we would have never been on that camping trip. It was a family outing that was supposed to get everyone to come together again. It worked, it worked so well that we were actually a family again.
Who am I kidding. Innocence is over rated anyway right? Least that's what everyone said. SOme of us just loose our innocence without really meaning to, or wanting to.
Annabelinda, Original Character, 348 words
This post is OPEN for RP and Comments.