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[lickety_spit]

I hate my life and I want to die. I have nothing to live for. Every little thing hurls me into a depression lately. I think the only reason I won't kill myself is I'm afraid of how it will hurt.

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[falucious]

have you told somebody in real life? i've been where you were when you wrote this, hopefully you're not gone.

[lickety_spit]

Yes, I have told people. What sucks is that people who care don't want to hear me say such things, then I feel bad for bringing everyone down. I'm okay right now, but it comes and goes without warning, and that last time was the worst and longest yet. I'm afraid of what it will be like next time.

[falucious]

it'll always be tough, the important thing is to do what you can to prepare yourself for what should be considered the inevitability of the feelings coming back. it's easier to deal with if you understand the warning signs and what to expect.