Jen I can't proove anything to you, but merly ask for your trust. You mean a great deal to me. Words and abstractions are the only thing I can give you; If you're asking for phsyical substance, I can't prove anything.

ROb YOU ARE MY SUNSHINE!!!!!!

Jen I think is quite clear that I'm bending over backwards just to get you talk to me. Don't you think that if I, so called, gave a rats ass about u I would just say fuck off and never talk to you again. Jen wheather you considered us "best" or not I did. You were my best friend. I wish like hell that I could have changed the way things worked ( Read more... )

Well Jen I'm glad you have found self-confidence. I didn't ask to get away with anything, But I can't change what I screwed-up, I can merly ask you forgive the fact that I didn't keep in touch with you as much as I should of. It's your option to hold a grudge, and you can say how you never regarded me as your best friend or whatever, if that ( Read more... )

Funny how things turn out these days. How people can't phathom the very thought of regret, amends, and conversation, all in the same sentence. No matter what the reason or situation yeilds there is always thoughts of defense by the offened party. This reaction is brought about when the opposing party: apologies(regrets past events) or trys to ( Read more... )

I am here in good ol FL!!! I'm here finally it's amazing. it almost feels like I never left. I was talking to Kellen about all of this, since he was the one that picked me up from the airport and eveything...I live in TX, I like it there, I care about people there, but I guess there will always be a part of me that will be burried in the beaches ( Read more... )

Jen I'm going to visit FL. soon I would really like it if we talked. It has never sat in my stomache right even since we stopped talking. I was looking through some pictures of PHUHS,Lydia's house and remembering all the good times that we had there. I really miss the relationship that we used to have. I apologise for anything that I have done ( Read more... )

I would just like to write an apology. To all the people that I ever cared for, I am sorry for leaving you in such a limbo. As my present state allows me to, the only way that I could stop the missing the longing, was to forgett. Not saying that I forgott about all of you, but instead I pushed you all in a little pouch within my mind for safe ( Read more... )

I noticed something today; how beautiful the wind is. It's almost like it was created to massage pieces of the earth. You see trees flutter and waves roll in response to it's caress. It even rearranges the way our skin feels. It reminds us that we can feel, that we are alive. I've never vauled such a concept before.

Speaking of tatoos, I'm going to be getting pink angel wings on back in about a month. very exciting I think. I've talked with a tatooist and it seems that the job is goihng to take, at rough estimate, 6 sessions 2 1/2 hours each. I hope that I can handle the pain. Well in any case I'm going to have to. I'm bursting with antisipation. OH and ( Read more... )