I  can't shake off this feeling in my insides
hanging there like a loose tooth

the swings hitting skin

everything about me is unsettled.

none of this  is any good
readdress necessity
counting the countertops
before I drop floors on ceilings
I take being awake as a sign.
belonging is a temporary position to fill
and I was just given 
two weeks notice

 cloud 9 evaporated ( Read more... )

cemetery landscapes 
crossing graves with trees
I blow leaves into the abyss
and rake the air

The only conversation between these friends 
enough to make them open their mouths
is about what happened the past weekend
while one mentions how she got high
the other 
gave her first blowjob

"Remember you said it would taste just like licking your arm?"
"yeah"
"well it did."

right there the talking ends,
and there is no scorn upon one another
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I went to a show last night. 
It's been awhile.
I had a good time to say the least. 
I love everything. 
The experience of waiting outside in the cold to go in, 
an expected lost ticket, 
the painted walls inside and out,
the anticipation and amount of time standing around, 
suspenders, paddy hats, bun beards, and kilts,
drinking merry old men
I can't just ( Read more... )

I went to Alaska tonight
the ice's crisp cracks
splitting crystals down the middle
walking on the ground now is just the same as walking on the leaves 
it doesn’t bother me as much as it should. 
I carry the smell as I walk in the door
thoughts don’t travel well up the stairs.
I was wrong.
the ground feels like sandbags.

it isn't the intial shot that is frightening ( Read more... )

Why is asking a single question misinterpreted as criticism?
How come when a topic is brought up, 
it is only then
that it doesn't want to be talked about?

Who are we kidding?
Who is kidding who?

I didn't mean harm as much as harm means to be mean to me

I feel bad 
so you don't have to.

 "good for you Mom."
"yes, as she says it quietly"
"...you noticed."