I must brag...

[liddia]

First of all..why isn't anyone writing in here anymore??? Now for all of you that work at the library, I must brag about one thing in my new library. This is just about the only good thing there!! I get to wear jeans...:) shouldn't do it everyday, but still...and the shelvers (as they are called here) can listen to music on their M3P players

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Sorry!

[thisismyaccount]

Sorry I don't post in here anymore, babe, but I'm glad to know that you are safe and sound in Alaska, and once again basking in the warm glow of a library. If you ever make it back to the Midwest, TELL ME! I don't want to miss it :). Keep smiling and give Adyson a kiss for me!

[xerothehero]

Hi. how am I? horrible. I've flunked out of school once and dropped out twice. I thought I found a girl I liked, turns out, after everything she told me, she ends up dating my "friend" Hal. Oh yeah, he's like 17 years older than her. I work at McDonald's, my car got repo'd, I'm broke, on the verge of being evicted, and I still haven't gotten over you. Over four years since we last dated, what, like two since I've seen you or talked to you. What was it I was going to do by my 21st birthday? Remember that? Propose to you. How did you change my life? What did you teach me? That I am, at heart, a vile, unrepentant, lying beast of a human and that I have to watch very carefully everything I do and say. Oh, and I've been to like two or three different psychiatrists in the last two years. Know why? Cause I'm crazy. I hear voices sometimes and they tell me what a horrible person I am. Sometimes, it's your voice

[liddia]

Ok..i know you told me to never contact you again. ever., but I have something to say. I never said you are a horrible 'vile, unrepentant, lying beast of a human..' I simply said that in the past you hurt me deeply (forgiven now btw) and that I can't trust you. Thats it. I don't think that is too harsh considering...
ok..I hope things turn around for you and you can be that happy person that I remeber again one day. I'm sorry that you don't want to ever talk to me again, but I'll understand.
Good-bye Eric

[xerothehero]

Sorry I said that. I didn't mean it. I'm not always myself. Bad days are really bad days. I'm coming out of it now, and if the cycle continues, I should be okay for a couple weeks or a month. But, it's probably still best if you don't email me anymore. Talking to you just brings up horrible things in my brain that I can't deal with at this juncture in my life. Maybe someday I'll look you up and see what you are up to, but untill then, I need to move on and get my life picked up and pieced together before I start talking to people from my past. I'm a wholly different person now, and you wouldn't know me from Adam if you didn't see me. Choices I've made are mine and mine alone, and I don't want anyone taking credit or blame for them. I know some of this just doesn't make sense, but that's the way the cookie crumbles. You aren't the only one who was hurt in our exchanges, I just took longer to realize I was bleeding.