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If i have to give you up
i'm not sure that i could
i doubt that i'd be able to
or even that i would
you captured me somehow
i let you hold my heart
& i allowed your kiss
to tear my walls apart
a dream is what i thought you were
the day that i met you
the world around me faded
and all that was left were us two
nothing else in this life
has held my attention quite like you
and with every ounce of what i am
I give myself to you...
The past month has driven me absolutely insane. I've gained and lost..mostly just losing. I've lost some of the closest friends i've ever had over arguments that seem completely ridiculous to me now. I said some things that i didn't mean..and i wish i could take them back. But i can't. (Paul, Jenn, Rob, and especially John...i cant apologize enough. But once more can't hurt. I'm sorry.) It wasnt completely my fault either. As childish as this sounds, they were the ones who started it. If they could have just realized that my life and what i do with it has nothing to do with them, then we'd still be friends. I never got on them over the stupid things that they've done or said.. why should i be so different?
And on top of that, i've recently come to terms with my breakup with Jacob. It was months ago, but i'm just now getting over it. He moved to Florida a few days ago, and though i'm grateful that he's in a place where i no longer have to think of him, i find that i still do.
Then there's Frank. My Frank. My Love. Everything was PERFECT between us. And yet, somehow, suddenly, he just stopped. He stopped calling, and talking to me.. i didnt do anything as far as i know, so what's the problem? what happened? I'll never know. My heart is kinda broken over it. I didn't think i'd end up so attached to him. To that smile, his jokes, the way he laughed, the way he looked at me.. I dont think i'll ever get to expirience it anymore. It would take a miracle.
Jetta Joe has been distant from me the past two weeks or so too. He's met a new girl. She's pretty, smart, sweet, and absolutely amazing, and he really likes her. She makes him happy. And i understand that. I'm happy for him. But what about me? I've always been Jetta Joe's best friend, and he's never forgotten about me before. We're supposed to do everything together. We always have... why is it so different now? What changed? Its not like he's never had a serious girlfriend before. I just don't want him to leave me behind like everyone else has been doing ...
i'm not sure that i could
i doubt that i'd be able to
or even that i would
you captured me somehow
i let you hold my heart
& i allowed your kiss
to tear my walls apart
a dream is what i thought you were
the day that i met you
the world around me faded
and all that was left were us two
nothing else in this life
has held my attention quite like you
and with every ounce of what i am
I give myself to you...
The past month has driven me absolutely insane. I've gained and lost..mostly just losing. I've lost some of the closest friends i've ever had over arguments that seem completely ridiculous to me now. I said some things that i didn't mean..and i wish i could take them back. But i can't. (Paul, Jenn, Rob, and especially John...i cant apologize enough. But once more can't hurt. I'm sorry.) It wasnt completely my fault either. As childish as this sounds, they were the ones who started it. If they could have just realized that my life and what i do with it has nothing to do with them, then we'd still be friends. I never got on them over the stupid things that they've done or said.. why should i be so different?
And on top of that, i've recently come to terms with my breakup with Jacob. It was months ago, but i'm just now getting over it. He moved to Florida a few days ago, and though i'm grateful that he's in a place where i no longer have to think of him, i find that i still do.
Then there's Frank. My Frank. My Love. Everything was PERFECT between us. And yet, somehow, suddenly, he just stopped. He stopped calling, and talking to me.. i didnt do anything as far as i know, so what's the problem? what happened? I'll never know. My heart is kinda broken over it. I didn't think i'd end up so attached to him. To that smile, his jokes, the way he laughed, the way he looked at me.. I dont think i'll ever get to expirience it anymore. It would take a miracle.
Jetta Joe has been distant from me the past two weeks or so too. He's met a new girl. She's pretty, smart, sweet, and absolutely amazing, and he really likes her. She makes him happy. And i understand that. I'm happy for him. But what about me? I've always been Jetta Joe's best friend, and he's never forgotten about me before. We're supposed to do everything together. We always have... why is it so different now? What changed? Its not like he's never had a serious girlfriend before. I just don't want him to leave me behind like everyone else has been doing ...