really....

why do I care so much

and worry

and panic

and nag

i dont even understand me

seriously how can i expect ANYBODY else too...

you
break promises like crayons
can rip my heart out of my chest
but place it back and handle me with such care
you
fall asleep in my arms
not knowing how i watch you
drawing your face in my mind
you
can't see
what im giving to you
this is all i can do

one year
eleven months
today

sing for me sing for me sing for me
touch me

i hate rain

i hate being wet

i hate my car leaking

i hate new england

going to amys to drink

i plan on getting very drunk

i want everything to blur

and spin out of control

colors bleeding

i need that

ive been in control too long

time to let go

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once upon a time

i knew who i was

and where i was going

now i stumble through it all

glueing peices back together as i go

cause i am so broken lately

you are shattered

i dont know you

the end

i absolutely adore my jobs... i could seriously never ask for anything more... little kids, and old people are the greatest ( Read more... )

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i am

Always

So lost

Too cold to care,

U have cut me so deep

Please lick my wounds

I need you

Don't leave me

Back me up

I need you there

To catch me

Crying has become my life

Help me move on...