...beauty is nothing more than a state of mind. i see things differently each day. yet everything is the same. i believe that people are beautiful..but there souls are ugly. everyone is beautiful and ugly...its just what you let show. if you dwell in the darkness you live that way..your ora becomes black..you become dead. you become a dried flower ( Read more... )

funny things always seem to happen to me ( Read more... )

went out with ian today. stopped at carries. had much fun. realized im not the only person in the world with these insane feelings i have. im not the only one that believes in the unbelievable. the unbelievable to me isnt real..everything is believable..it just depends on who has the brains to do it. i watch myself slowly regaining life....

i stare into this screen...looking for answers i'll never receive from this damn machine ( Read more... )

not a whole lot has happened lately. hung out with carrie this last weekend. we had a lot of fun. stole some wood to keep warm...went to ruby tuesdays..drove around a lot. it was relaxing and fun in a way. still havent heard from jon. i miss him still. i know i must be crazy. oh well...maybe someday he'll come back.........sigh..

Every day seems to drag on endlessly. I've been too busy. I have two jobs..I volunteer at the jr high..and I go to school until 11:20 every day. ...and still I miss Jon. I just wish I could hear from him..just once...just to know that he is alive. ...sigh....

got ahold of jon's grandma....... whats to come of this?

well..i dont think anything good is happening right now. jon has dropped from the face of the planet...he's left me here to wonder if he's still alive or if he's just being the typical male. am i hurt? i believe i am. i still havent come to a complete conclusion yet. ive been hoping he'll write..or call. nothing. i dont know. god this sucks. i ( Read more... )

..i just spent twenty minutes pouring my heart out into this damn machine...and all my words disapear ( Read more... )

Carol isnt doing much better. My dad told me she has 6 months to a year to live. It tears me apart. All I want is for her to see me graduate. I dont want to lose her ( Read more... )