Fic -The Still Prayer of Devotion
Title: The Still Prayer of Devotion
Warnings: Spoilers for 6.22.
Summary: Jimmy Novak has always been aware of what's going on. 100 words.
Notes: Title/cut comes from Thomas Moore's poem "As Down in the Sunless Retreats," and I totally did not spend ten minutes combing through my new secondhand copy of "Familiar Quotations" looking for something good to call this.
Jimmy Novak is awake when Castiel does the ritual, and if his desperate pleas are heard, Castiel gives no signs.
He’s still awake when they enter his body, screaming and crying and laughing.
He’s awake when Castiel kills the last Archangel. When he turns to the Winchesters and blasphemes irreversibly.
You’re not God, Jimmy cries. Castiel, stop. Stop it now.
I’m still here, he thinks. Castiel, I’m still here.
But if Castiel, the Castiel he willingly gave his body to, is still there, he doesn’t bother to reveal himself, and Jimmy Novak is left screaming amidst a million other souls.